Legends

Chapter 5

I lost the only companion I wanted to talk to.

I watched as Alilawen happily led the way with Adder in tow. Rhaw followed them, excited for the journey to Yaema. I waited before speeding up to walk beside Cidda. I try and come up with something to say but nothing seemed to fit. I had too many questions and concerns that I didn't know where to begin or what to ask first.

As if reading my mind, Cidda spoke quietly, "Don't. I'm not going to justify my actions to you. I'm only here for my kingdom's treasure..then it'll all be fine." I look at her as if Adder hit me over the head again with his bow.

"Why are you so dead set on this stupid relic? And what are you going on about with 'It'll all be fine.' ? Why are you being so cold to me? I thought we were on good terms."

"It's a powerful artifact! And the only reason I want it back is so I can atone my pride, honor and dignity! I don't currently have a problem with you and I told you already. I'm not here to make friends. Just to get this stupid thing back. You don't know what happened..."

"Then tell me! Have you ever thought telling someone would maybe make you feel better? That having someone who is on your side would make it easier?" She looks down at the ground and remains silent. I wait for her to break the silence and say something, still walking beside her.

"I had people on my side..they're gone and everyone blames me. You wouldn't understand. You have a family that didn't cast you out. You got to visit many places and meet people. I was cast away into a small house on the edge of the kingdom. Even the peasants looked at me like I was nothing..." I let silence settle in for a moment before looking at her.

"You have no right to tell someone that they don't understand something...you think I have it made? I practically ran away to those places. I met all those people because they brought me into their homes. I don't want to take on what he wants me to do. I'd love to be outcast and hated. That's why I like women. They make it easier to be hated by everyone. But for some reason I don't want to be hated by you. And you specifically."

"Nydiragord...I don't hate you. I don't want to hate you. But I've lost my whole party. Everyone but me died that day and everyone, everyone blames me...you don't want to be me."

"I don't want to be me. I'm going to b-" I stop myself from saying anymore. I was sworn to secrecy not to speak about the matter. I didn't want to explain it or take on that responsibility. "What are you going to be?" I looked at Cidda with a serious look on my face, "Exactly what I never wanted. That's what I'm going to be."