Suicide

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by Simon-Nevo

by Simon-Nevo

WARNING: Mentions of suicide and depression

Prompt: Joe has a tought life because he's suicidal and has depression, god bless him 🙏

-Joe's pov-

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Today's the last day I'm gonna hear clock ticking. Today's also the last time i hear the school bells ringing because the day is over. Today was also the last "goodmorning" and "see you later, love you mom!" ever. The last 10 minutes i have to look at my crush have just started. Last 10 minutes with my best friend Caspar Lee. The boy who already stopped me 3 times in 5 years. But it's just too much. He's probably thinking what a drag I am to live with. I'm just a burden to everyone. No-one loves me anyway. So what's the use of living?

*magical time skip*

*TRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNGGGGGG*

Finally, my time has come. I grab my backpack, put my books in it and leave. I tried to be as fast as i could, and of course Caspar noticed. I tried to run but he put his hand onto my shoulder, trying to stop me.
"Jojo, what's wrong bro?
"Nothing Casp, can, can you just go home, to the people who you love?" I noticed the all too familiar feeling of my throat burning before I burst out in tears. " Awwww Joe, what's wrong, tell me please, I love you, you know?"
I wanted to say everything but, i couldn't, not at school, but i don't trust myself alone aswell. "Caspy, can you come with me?"
I feel stupid for asking that because he'd get in trouble for being even 1 minute late. "Sure Joe, where we going to?"
"You'll see when we get there"
He took my hand in his and I started blushing, feeling electricity running through my body aswell. How i love this guy.

*magical teleportation to place*

"We're here Casp." I say as i sit down on the bench Caspar probably doesn't remember.
"Joe tell me what's been bugging you, please" Caspar asked pouting, off course, falling in love with someone makes it so easy for them to get you to do something for them. I take a deep breath and relax. The noise of leaves flying around and a small river relax me when I open my mouth and start saying everything. "I-I -i want to kill myself again Cas" I say bursting out in tears. After a second or two, Caspar places my legs on his and hugs me close. I put my head on his shoulder and explain everything, from cutting to suicidal thoughts, to the bullying, my parents fighting.
"Awwwww Joe, if u want, if u want to stay at my place, and talk some more then you can okay?" I wanted to tell him I have a crush on him too, looks like I'm saving that for later today. "Thanks so-so-so much for saving me from myself, again" Caspar chuckled at "Again"
"No problem, so we're going to mine then?"
"Off course, Caspy"

*ANOTHER TIME SKIP AND TELEPORTATION*

It's about 5:30pm when we get here, Caspar's saying hello to his mom asking me to stay over. "Sure Casp, a friend of yours is a friend of mine" Aawww thanks Caspar's mom.
"Thanks so much mom"
We go upstairs into Caspar's room, your average 16 year old boy's room. A messy desk, a MacBook, posters of tøp, My Chemical Romance, Fob and Marina and the diamonds. I didn't know he likes Marina as well.
"You never told me you liked Marina and the diamonds aswell" I say, actually surprised by that. "Yeah, I like them, my favorite album's Electra Heart by the way" Electra Heart you say? I think i must have heard that name before. I start thinking and thinking and after what seems like 5 seconds, Caspar pushes me down on his bed and starts tickling me. "HAHAHA, CASPAR, STOP PLE-HAHAAH BAHAHAAH HAHA . STO-HAHAAH"
He kept tickling me for a good 20 seconds.
"Well uhm, that was fun" I said still laughing.
"I know, I know, thanks, but you had to tell me one more thing Joe, what is it?" He looks at me with his beautiful blue eyes. I'm really going to do this, please Caspar, don't hate me.
"The thing I wanted to tell you is, and please don't hate me but, I think I'm in love with every piece of you, from your beautiful hair, pretty face, majesty blue eyes wherein I drown every time I look at them, the way you make me laugh when I'm sad, and your beautiful body, and Caspy, I know you don't love me because, I mean look at m-" Before I even said that i hate myself, Caspar had started kissing me on the lips. Not a hungry kiss, a passionate, slow, tongueless, kiss. Our lips fitting perfectly into each others. We both pulled away after what feels way too short. "I love you too Joe."
"You can't possibly fall in love with me, I mean look at me" I say crying. "I think it's too late too say that, I already am" I'M SCREAMING INTERNALLY AT HOW CUTE THAT WAS, OMFG CASPAR I LOVE YOU. "oH MY GOD, I LOVE YOU" I say before connecting our lips again.
-Narrator pov-
(morgan freeman)
And after that kiss
Joe's scars disappeared
His depression did too
His love for Caspar only grew stronger everyday.
And they turned from best friends
Into boyfriends.
Into husbands
And eventually
Into grave mates

-The end-

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SHÏT THAT WAS LONG
I LOVE YOU GUYS FOR READING MY
ONE-SHOTS AND VOTING ETC
AND AS ALWAYS
BISH, I'M OUT
AND GAY