fences

4

Logan

I feel absolutely no pain. Literally.

My mom is on the phone with people I don't know, telling them about my accident. Joey is being his usual perfect self, studying.

Dad didn't even come to the hospital, like I even wanted him to.

The only thing I was worried about were the pair of eyes that saved me before I blacked out. They had the weirdest color, brown dominating the swirling greys and greens. Those eyes seemed so familiar, like it wasn't the first time I saw the whirlpool of forest in her eyes.

I knew the person who helped me was female, I could tell by her voice and her scent. She smelled like fresh laundry and maraschino cherries.

Her voice was light and airy, like her words were carried out softly by every breath.

Not to be a douche or anything, but I wish she didn't save me. She wasted her time and energy saving me. I wish I just died right then and there and nobody would care.

As my mom would say though, "We all can't get what we want."

But the only thing I want right now is to be dead, lying in my casket while my mother's fake cries and my dad worrying about Joey's next math competition. The only difference between this and reality is the fact that I'll be dead.

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Apparently I am severely concussed and I broke left arm. The doctor also told me to be careful with my back since I took a pretty hard hit.

All I do in the hospital is sleep. Sleep in absolute blankness. I'm still aware of what going on while sleeping though, I think it's the morphine.

Dad came to visit me today. Which was weird because I've been here for 2 weeks and this is the first time he's actually came to visit me.

"Hey Logan." he whispers to me like I'm awake. "Ya got pretty roughed up there. You know what they told me, you almost died. You were inches away from it. I almost lost you."

I could hear him sniffling like he was about to cry. I didn't feel sorry, I won't ever feel sorry for him. He ruined our family.

"Logan, I know you hate me and you'll never forgive me for Joey, but I want to apologize. You think I don't care about you? Logan you will always be my first son with the woman I actually love."

His speech made my heart feel a squeeze, but i didn't care. It's a little late for his lame ass apology.

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{A/N: Sorry I haven't updated in a while and this is so short, I had a bit of writers block but it's fixed now. Expect a new chapter soon}