Bea's POV
3 months. 3 f***king months na akong hindi pinapansin ni jho. Lahat na ata ng galawang beadel eh nagawa ko na pero wala pa rn sa kanya.
Andito ako ngayon sa condo ni kuya Mark. He's my 2nd eldest brother next to kuya Loel ofcourse. And mas close kami because he's studying in ateneo rin and he's a varsity of AMBT. Anyway, yun nga kinuwento ko sa kanya yung mga nangyari for the past three months ng pagpapapansin ko kay jho pero no epek!
"You know what sis. Read between the lines. Ikaw kasi eh. Youre being too sweet to her to the point na parang binibaby mo na sya. Lahat ng attention mo nasa kanya na nga eh. Nakakaselos! Haha i Remember the time when you almost ditch our family dinner because you told us that jho is not feeling well and that is, no one's in your dorm aside sayo and jho?. Eh yun pala gusto mo lang sumama sa kanya sa batangas. Tsk buti na lang at tumawag si mommy kay jho and ayun hahaha" he said while still laughing.natawa na lang rin ako ng maalala ko yun.
" Yeah and super nakakahiya kasi si dad and mom pa talaga yung sumundo sakin sa dorm with matching sermon in front of my teammates" sabi ko naman habang tumatawa sabay inom. Nagkayayaan kasi kami ngayon kaya medyo tipsy na ako pero itong isa ang lakas ng tolerance sa alak. Kung high tolerance ako mas lalo na to haha. Nakakainis nga eh kanina pa ako dito seryoso pero itong isa naman laging ginagawang joke yung mga kwento ko.
"But seriously bei, you know jho well, hindi sya iiwas kung walang mas malalim na rason para iwasan ka." Bigla naman akong napatingin sa kanya kasi sumeryoso yung tono ng boses nya." What do you mean?" I said while having an eye to eye contact with him. " i think i already know the reason why jho is avoiding you, the problem is not with her, its you" he said, and it made me feel dumbfounded. "I didnt get it, im the victim here. I told you, she was the one who pushes me away everytime i go near her. She was the first one to avoid me and ruined our friendship! And..-and now your telling me that all this time its my fault?" Medyo tumataas na yung boses ko kasi naman akala ko Kakampi ko sya, yun pala parehas lang sila ng teammates ko. Ako rin ang sinisisi nila kung bakit kami nagkaganito ni jho.
" hey Lady listen, ok. Im not saying that it's all your fault. What im trying to say is that you know jho, hindi sya magkakagayan kung wala siyang problema sayo. Didn you get it, why do you think of all your teammates sayo lang sya ganyan? Sayo lang sya umiiwas?. Hindi mo ba napapansin na baka nasa iyo ang problema?" Paliwanag naman nya.
" eh wala naman akong problema ah, sya tong umiiwas sakin. Kung ako ang problema nya sana sabihin nya hindi yung parang tanga ako ditong nagiisip kung anong nangyari samin!" Singhal ko naman sa kanya.
"Kasi gusto nya na ikaw mismo ang makaalam nun"- Kuya
"PERO HINDI AKO MANGHUHULA!" Isang malakas na batok naman ang nakuha ko sa kanya." Ouch, ano ba!" Medyo naiinis na talaga ako.
"HAHAHAHA" Tawanan ba naman ako. Sometimes i cant read what's on his mind, he's really weird. Bigla na lang tatawa tapos maya maya magiging seryoso.kagaya ngayon.Hayss!
"If you really think that you had nothing to do with this,then stay away from her. Dont make it really hard for her to let you go, you know what bei, we got only one life to live, and living without the truth and happiness is not living at all. Sometimes you have to stand up for something/someone that is really worth fighting for, makuha mo man yun o hindi, im telling you its worth the fight, because atleast somehow YOU TRIED." He said then finished the last bottle of beer in his hands and stand.
I didnt get what hes trying to say, but one thing's for sure. He's dead serious about what he said.. Before he got inside his room he said something.
"Just admit it to yourself sis, lower down your pride, take things slowly but surely. Im pretty sure you know what im talking about, you just have to admit it. Dont worry well always got your back.Goodnight!"
And thats it. Mas lalo ata gumulo. My head's spinning not because of the beer but because of what he said. I"ll take shower na lang before i sleep.
Before i close my eyes i decided to text jho.
To jho:
Hi beh! First of all i just want to say sorry. Tbh, i still dont know the reason of you avoiding me. But dont worry, as soon as i figure it out.ill make bawi to you. goodnyt beh sleepwell and imy :(
Sent!
Kuya mark's right, i think nasa akin talaga yung mali. Im just scared to admit it because of my pride. Im being childish! I should learn how to take things seriously. Basta whatever it is, bahala na.
