ALLEGIANT

Chapter 15:

I feel my body shake even though I knew he would say something like this. But his confession isn't what has my body quaking, it's the way his words parallel the words Cara said on my second day here. "I know who kills your boyfriend." She tells me that it's me who kills him, tells me that I'm the one to pull the trigger. But what if she's wrong? What if Peter is a variable that they didn't expect, what if that's the reason that Cara seems to fear him so much and yet she knows so much about him.

I look at Peter and then the shocked faces of my friends. "Someone is going to die" he says, as if on instinct, Christina, Uriah, and even Tobias look at the number 2060 on his chest.

They all remain quiet so I break the silence.

"Tobias, we need to talk." Before he can respond I grab his arm and pull him down the hall, we take a left then a right and then two lefts until I'm sure that no one followed us.

"Tris, where are you taking me?" He says, trying to hide the stress in his voice

"Here" I say, I look around, paranoid even though they're all my friends.

Well, except for Peter.

I look up at him and memorize the blue of his eyes, the darkness of his hair, the softness of his features that seems absent around everyone but me.

I touch his cheek and he smiles, I can tell it's fake, the look in his eyes has me worried that he thinks I'm going crazy.

"Cara knows how you die." I tell him, he nods into my hand,  expecting this.

"I know, and you say that you're the one to kill me, I know." He tightens his jaw and I can tell that this is the last thing that he wants to talk about.
"Yes, I know." I say and drop my hand. "But what If it's not me, what if it's him."

He was looking around while I was talking, we both have a habit of looking for an escape to conversations like this. But now, his dark blue eyes snap to mine.
"But you said that Cara-"
"Yes I know what I said, but you heard him right? He's hardly human, he's a walking simulation and we don't even know what that means."

"We also don't know if he's even telling the truth." He says, gauging my reaction. "For all we know he could be the same self centered asshole that he always was. Except now he know that it's 4 against one and he needs to choose what side of the war he's one. He chose wrong the first time around and I'm sure he doesn't want to make the same mistake."

"But-"

"Tris, this is Peter we're taking about. He wouldn't hesitate to kill any of us if it meant saving his own skin. You of all people should know that."

I nod but I'm not convinced.

"I don't think he would."

Tobias steps back, his face a mask, but I'm not blind to the thick look of hurt across his eyes.

"What?"

"I don't think that it's impossible for people to change. I did, you did too."

"I was never a homicidal maniac."

I flinch from his words even though I know he's talking about Peter.

"Well then what do you suggest."

"We kill him." He says the words no nonchalantly that now it's my turn to step back.

"What?"

He shrugs, an anger in his eyes that I've never seen before.

"Tris, if he thinks he's going to kill someone we can't just wait around to see if he's right. And hell, I don't care if it's me, Its not that that worries, I've accepted it. But if he kills Christina, or Uriah?" He looks pained, giving me reason to believe that he hasn't accepted his fate, not that I can blame him. I won't ever accept it, ever.