He'll Never Let Me Go

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Aldenbert

As cliche as thing sound, I can feel the electric pulse pulsing through my body. Adrenaline must've hit me...or sugar rush. But I think my body recognizes what's happening right now. I think that this is my metabolism towards the people I'm warm with and I think I really am warm towards Hailey.

But is she warm towards me...still?

Arggghh! I really shouldn't be thinking about this right now.

"Yeah, then you'll suddenly start shaking your head and look like a fucking retard and totally ruin the moment between the both of you and she'll start hating you and you'll be crying your guts out..." My mind told me.

Shut up mind. You're the one making these things happen and ruin everything. Fucking A-hole.

Oh...wait. The think that's happening right now.

I snapped out of my fucked-up thoughts and look at Hailey. I could see that tears were urging an escape out of her eyes and I know soon enough, she'd break down. But also, at the same time, her eyebrows were furrowed and her lips were sealed in a thin line. Obviously speaking, she's thinking.

But the cold atmosphere that hugs the both of us was just too cold that I can't bear anything. I can't bear the time, every sencond that passes by, the wind howling, the creaking noise. It's like what's happening right now is the only thing that would let me go on with my life.

I actually feel like I'm proposing marriage to someone right now.

I pulled myself out of the reverie and mainly focused myself to watch the following events to come. I suddenly felt cold sweat bead my forehead and a dry lump in my throat was starting to form. I could also feel a rush of excitement and nervousness attack me at the same time and make things more impossible for me.

Damn this.

I suddenly felt Hailey slowly move her hands away from my shoulders and place them on my chest. THe feeling of her warm palms gliding against my throbbing chest was just too exciting and life-nervousing for me at the same time and if I won't get a response from her anytime soon, maybe, just maybe, I'll go crazy.

I suddenly felt her palms slowly move again and move downwards and sideways until it reached my torso. Then withing mere seconds, her arms hugged me and moved us closer to each other. I could also hear her soft whimpers and she tucked her face towards my chest and I could feel warm liquid flow down my chest. Hailey was crying and hugging me at the same time.

But I don't know what to do. What to feel.

Should I be happy that she was hugging me?

Or should I feel hurt and pained because she's crying?

But I did not bother to to anything else, I just gave mer a warm hug. I moved my trembling arms and encircled them around her frame and closed the distance between us. 

"Shhhh...Hailey. Stop crying, querido." I tried to keep her calm.

"I'm not sad, Alden. I'm not crying, either. I just feel so...overwhelmed. I don't know Alden. My mind is so blank but I've been thinking for the past few moments that you deserve this." She said as the soft whimpers stopped erupting and she looked at my curious face.Her lips were not furrowed but insted, they were smiling.

"I'm not sad, Alden. I'm not crying, either. I just feel so...overwhelmed. I don't know Alden. My mind is so blank but I've been thinking for the past few moments that you deserve this."

Those words sunk in my mind.

'you deserve this.'

Then suddenly, words started pouring in my nerves and within few moments, conclusions hit me like a flash before my eyes.