He'll Never Let Me Go

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Aldenbert

I saw Hailey's phone on the floor and grimaced, knowing she'll come back in my office to grab it and that scenario can be a possibility of having a 'real' talk with her about what have happened.

It was still her old yet futuristic multi-touch- screen phone that she had when the company gave her that as a gift.

She took care of it.

I smiled at it knowing that she did not change it and it was still her background, which is our photo together with our faces stuck together. A sudden idea just randomly pooped up in my head and my mind was back to processing its thoughts again.

I sure do know she'll come back and get it and it'll be my chance, but...what should I say?

Should I say my feelings?

Wait, won't be that too fast-forward?

Should I push her to just accept the ten grand in exchange of her presence?

I've annoyed her too many fucking times. She'll hate me more if I did that.

Or should I ask her to work for me again in exchange for an instant 10 grand?

No...I want....

I want something else.

I want her to be in a relationship with me where we could be ourselves. No limits, no business...no anything. Just us.

I want to date her...really date her.

I uncontrollably shook my head multiple times and slapped my cheeks. I kept mouthing 'no' and paced back and forth, until the door crept open and revealed the familiar figure of Hailey.

My insides were being hyper again and my crazy mood swung withing mere seconds as soon as I laid my eyes on hers.

God what have Hailey done for me to go bananas towards her!

This is insanity!

Why do I keep thinking about her?

Why do I keep courting myself, finding ways on how to have a connection with her? 

and why the heck do I always think she's reject me, when I barely started anything with her!

That's it I'm insane.

This is really insanity!

"Uh, can I have my phone back?"She asked. I snapped out of my thoughts a soon as I heard those words.

God, She must've seen me. Now, she might think I'm an idiot or a person with a mental state stuff. A little help here?

I mentally slapped myself and forced myself to focus on what's happening. I shook my head for awhile and turned my face to look at Hailey.

She was shivering, it was totally obvious. Her hands were trembling as I stared at them but I, not to sound really evil, will take this chance and talk about the deal again. I smirked and focused at her features again and opened my mouth to speak.

"Well come and get it then, but the deal before, I know what you've been through and your best friend Karoline is far away from you so you have nowhere to run, except back with me. Hailey, I really want to compensate the time I lost with you. I took the blame and now, I feel guilty. Just, please." I pleaded. Wishing she'd accept.

She bowed her head and her nose started to become runny. She was heavily breathing and her body language tells that she's hurt too.

I stood up, holding up a handkerchief to wipe off her tears. I lifted her chin up to see her glowing face and wiped off her tears using my handkerchief. I know, I may have took advantage of her sometimes but it was for good. I love her, until now and that is a fact that can't be easily erased in mine and her mind. We've been through a lot of things weather it's something bad or good.

And seeing her cry was a huge 'PANG!' in my mind and feelings.

"Quel est le larmes?"(translation:

what's the tears for? I asked her 

"Rien."(translation" nothing)she stopped.

"How do you know me so well?signor?" she asked in between sneezes

"Because what I feel about you is real and I really want to feel and to know what I really feel right now is...true, Mjin vrouw." I told her with my true feelings. I know deep inside, the back of my head thinks I may have sounded lame, but just like what I've said...

I'll do it for Hailey.

I have to seep low just to get her because when I'm with her... 

I feel like I'm on the top the world.

"Then make me feel that you are 'cause I barely feel anything, I don't even know if you just want me for business or is it real, because YOU NEVER FOUGHT YOU FEELINGS FOR AND PROTECTED ME FROM CRITICISM!" she provoked me while stabbing her index finger across the empty air.

I know it must've been hard for her but I had no choice. She was facing something really hard and the only way to escape it is to let her go, even if that disappoints me and her. I have to. Even if I can't do it.

And this time, I promise. I'll make it up to her.

"Because I was busy, Hailey. I just- I need to fall just to lose it all Hailey, and that fall cost losing you! I am ready to face consequences again, Hailey. Kill me, hurt me, provoke me. But what do I have to do just to have you!" I told back her.

Dead silence filled the empty air and as time passes by, My palm just gets more sweaty and everything inside me just shakes harder and faster.

"Then- Then make me feel what you feel, gain my trust, money isn't worth it and I am staying here in London for awhile and help Karoline with her Greek restaurant and stay at her place. I have sources now since Karoline is successful, but let's see if you will really make an effort in gaining my trust and..." she paused.

"...and?..." I asked.

"and you'll feel and you'll get what you want afterwards."she said.

"And what about the payment?" I asked.

"No more, since while I am here in London, I might be earning some extras from Karoline and I might start a small business, back in America or in Barcelona, Spain." She said.

"Okay then, old deal no more and the new one... I'll take it." I said

"good, then thank you for giving the time."She thanked me.

Yes! Aldenbert, you're slowly getting things back. You're slowly getting her.

I mentally high-fived myself and smiled at Hailey as I handed her phone over.

"I'll never let you go, I promise, even if I lose." I assumed , knowing what I'm saying.

That's the spirit, I won't let her go, even if I lose everything...

again.

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So... Chapter four: fully renovated. See? We're making progress!

KiannaNavarrosa @2014