He'll Never Let Me Go

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 Hailey

Aldenbert was too focused in driving. His eyes were furious like fox's and both of his hands were skillfully manoeuvring the steering wheel. Though he was wearing his office attire, his biceps are bulging out. His hard body frame was so noticeable even if he was driving and many, just too many, memories are just playing in my head all over again.

Arrrrrggggg! Hailey, don't think about this, right here, right now! 

But it seems like I just can't get myself out of these thoughts.

It just seems like I still have a little hint of feelings for him.

Just seems.

Dead noise filled the empty space of the car and the atmosphere in here just seems to be too cold. I know, I shouldn't be complaining about something so shallow but for the past few months, my life is catastrophic enough for me to be used in irritating noise. For the past few months, all I heard was blames, screams, anger, and sadness. I could even remember one time, when I applied as the dishwasher of a restaurant downtown, I broke a plate and the shaggy owner of the restaurant just blew up on me. And, for the past few months, my life was trashy and was filled with fights and violence issues.

I just can't take the silence no more.

But if I can't take it, then what should I do to break it?

Should I clear the dry lump in my throat with an 'ermmm...?'

Very awkward.

Should I shift my position?

Or should I ask a question that 'may' give me a hint on what issue should I start discussing with Alden.

Yeah, pretty much that.

so I broke it my asking him, "How about your dad?" in a cautious tone, worried that he might reject me just like what he did few months ago. This issue just seems to be too sensitive to me and even if many people which was linked in this thing have moved on, I clearly haven't.

"He died after 3 months of rejecting and neglecting you. It payed him right." he said coldly. A comfortable exhale escaped my nostrils and I was quite happy that he did not ignore me. But I could feel the feelings that he was trying to make me connect to; make me want to emphasize. He's agry with his dad.

Even now.

I have to admit, what he've said was quite painful since he was the son and they're blood related. He grew up with his dad and I know that have some moments as a family, well at least a moment as a family. Though I have to admit, a part of me says Alden was suited to say those words since we were really close on being an official couple.

I just looked at the window and kept quiet, avoiding another conversation. I have to admit that I still have a bit of feelings for him and I am still hopeful that we would get to know each other more... but one thing ran trough my mind. My heart isn't fully opened about getting to know him and my brain just keeps on saying that he did not fight for me. And by just thinking about those things, a pang off dark feelings hits me.

 I admit it, I lost my faith to him when I heard that he would neglect and fire me. 

And those dark memories came running trough my mind again. I am back in the same old memory lane again.

6 months ago.

I was about to leave my office when I heard Aldenbert and his dad arguing. Sharp intakes of breath would be heard across the hallways and every-time a staff would pass by, they would just sigh and walk away.