Tribal Goddess {Editing}

I Told You To Be Patient

I Told You To Be Patient

I just didn't get it. I didn't get why Paul didn't get it. He was like a puppy that followed you around until he'd gotten some kind of love and affection. But I really didn't have love and affection to give. All of that nonsense flew out the window long ago; and with the help of the boys, I was slowly but surely getting it back.

Sam just didn't get it either, none of them got it. And what is 'IT' that I happen to be going on and on about?

I was talking about the lack of respect of my brother, knowing damn well that I wasn't just going to drop everything and stay here and take orders from the selfish, excuse of a person. And with Paul, I just didn't know what to do with the poor sap. He thinks that everything is going to work out for the better, and in reality, it's not. It can't work. I can't be with someone who works alongside of my brother, someone who follows my brother's orders. And someone who is as gullible as Paul, to believe that I want anything to do with their poor excuse of a wolf pack 'brotherhood'.

I felt sorry for everyone in Sam Uley's pack, even Sam. There was no personality where ever they traveled. And that's why I felt so bad for them, a couple of them may have a little bit of sunshine in their cloudy days, but as I can see it; soon they're all going to be like Sam. And that's exactly what Sam wants, I just wish everyone else was able to see it.

But I guess I'll always be the only one to see it.

"Hey gorgeous," Paul walked outside the front door, and met me with hug; somehow telling me, that my song choice, to him, was kind of sad. "do you feel better?"

He hugged me close, and it kind of made me feel dizzy. I started feeling that since I walked over the borderline from Montana to Washington. Along with feeling dizzy, it also came with irritating headaches.

"Yeah," I lied. When he released his arms from around me, he bought it for the first time, and I didn't like lying to him. He was everything to me, but today, wasn't the day to reveal who I just had a conversation with, the boy he thinks he may be in competition with. And I know he thought that, most of the time, I even think; he's thinking about it right now. "I just needed to get some air. What have you guys been doing?"

"Oh, you know; just waiting for you to make dinner." Kale, threw out, as he leaned back on the door frame.

"Well I'm sorry, I'll get started on dinner right away." I smiled half-heartedly and proceeded to make my way inside, passed everyone. And as I made my way through the lobby, I sat that everyone was gathered around the tv; feet dangling on the back of the sofa, heads hanging off the couch, arms stretched in multiple direction, and there were bodies on the floor. I love when we're all together, it made me feel better about Paul and Sam. That I had nothing to worry about with those losers.

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I kept hearing an object hitting something, but what I didn't know, was that that object was a rock, and it happened to be hitting my window. So I narrowed my eyes, still from being tired, and I climbed out of bed. Again, the floor was freezing, and I hurriedly hopped over to the window and peeked out of it to see that Paul was throwing tiny little pebbles. The kid must've been watching romance movies, because it was clear that this boy didn't do much reading.

I opened the window and I looked down the side of the house, to see if the boys would be up. They might've had sensitive hearing, but the boys were rocks when it came to sleeping.

"Paul, what are you doing here?!" I shouted into a loud enough whisper. But when I did, he just smiled like a bulky idiot.

"Come down here and I'll tell you." He continued to smile, and it just reminded me of my ignorant brother. He smiled the same way when he wanted something.