My dad told me that I need to update more often or you guys are going to hate me...Love Always, Evelyn Rose.
Gemma and I decide to go shopping for a few things, and I need to start packing for Harry and I. I’m so extremely excited to go see him. I get to see him perform again, which makes me happy. We go to small shops and then to expensive ones. I focus on buying what Harry told me I needed to wear on the tour with him, many skirts and thongs. I bought nice shirts and then short shorts to wear to sleep in. I bought nice bras and two new pairs of converses, with three new beanies. I didn’t plan on buying so much but Harry had to Gemma to let me get whatever I wanted. That he would pay for it.
Harry texted me before he went on stage. ‘I’m going to perform soon, wishing you were here with me. I miss you so much. I love you angel. Video chat when I’m done. I want to see what all you bought! .xx’ I giggle and text him back ‘Have an amazing time tonight. Good luck sweetheart. Remember I support you so much! I love you very much Harry. Make me proud baby :) .xx’
We stop and get a bite to eat and then decide we need groceries. So we go on and get them, enough to last us this week because we are both leaving soon. We go home with so many bags it’s hard to count. I put the food up and then start supper since Gemma did last night. She separates out bags and puts mine in mine and Harry’s bedroom. We eat supper and I clean, Gemma is going out with some of her friends tonight so I’m alone. It makes me a little nervous but I’m okay. I curl up on the couch with Emmett; I put some ice on my head for my cut. I turn on the TV and start watching a show; I start to fall asleep, for some reason now I’m tired all the time. I hear Gemma come in; I grab my phone, nothing from Harry. It’s midnight; I get worried and a little upset.
Just as I put my phone down, Harry texts me. ‘Video chat? Now please!’ I slowly get up and go into the bedroom, grabbing my laptop and turning it on. Harry pops up immediately, ‘‘Hey gorgeous.” “Hey cutie.” I say back. He smirks, “How was the performance?” I ask, “Pretty good, I’m exhausted. But I couldn’t sleep without talking to you. I’m sorry it’s so late but the guys wanted to go out for drinks.” “It’s fine. Don’t worry about it.” I say smiling. “Well show me what you got today!” He says with excitement. I get up and grab all the bags. I show him all my skirts, shirts, beanies, shoes, shorts, thongs, bras, everything. He loves all of it, “You’re going to look so amazing in those skirts.” He says, “Are you getting……aroused?” “I can’t help it, thinking about you in those skirts, I can dream can’t I?” I laugh at him, “Wait baby.” I say, “Only 6 more days.” “Actually 5.” He says smirking, “Even better.”
We laugh and talk until we fall asleep. I make sure to place myself in the middle of the bed so I don’t fall off. We fall asleep on video chat. Waking up a few times, I look at my computer at him sleeping; he looks so peaceful laying there. I wish I could lean over and kiss his cheek. I look closer to see my sweatshirt in his hands; he’s placed it by his face so he can smell it. I can’t help but to smile. I grab his sweatshirt from beside me and put it on; I stay cold without Harry here. His sweatshirt smells like him, making me relax. He lets out a small snore and I giggle. He gets louder until I hear Niall yell “Harry! Stop snoring!” He wakes Harry up, he looks at him computer at me laying there “You alright?” He asks quietly, his voice raspy from sleep. “Yeah, just got cold.” He sees his sweatshirt on me, “Goodnight baby. I love you. Text me when you wake up. Sweet dreams babe.” I blow him a kiss, “Goodnight babe. I love you more. Sweet dreams doll.” We both lie down and fall asleep.
I wake up that morning to Emmett under my neck and my computer screen black, slightly disappointed that Harry wasn’t there. But I know he has things to do aside from for video chatting with me, when I turn my laptop on, there is a note in his hand writing, ‘Good morning beautiful, while you sleep like an angel, I’ll be out. Text me when you wake up. I love you more.’ I smile when I see this. Harry is simply perfect. I roll over and get my phone. ‘I love waking up to your little notes. Have a great day sweetheart. I love you so much more! :D’ He doesn’t respond, which I understand he’s probably busy.
I get up and go to the shower; I have wedding things to do today. I have to select a venue, and the center pieces, and all of the table things. I shower and let my hair go natural, skinny jeans, a sweater, a scarf, and my new converses. Gemma’s up and ready. “Are you always up early?” She laughs at me, “No, you just sleep late. I hear you in there talking to Harry in the middle of the night.” I start to blush, “It’s sweet though.” I smile, Gemma is like my big sister now. She watches over me, protects me.
We meet Katherine at her building outside “Shall we?” She says as she motions us to the limo, she’s showing me three venues. We come up to the first one, a grand castle, very big and glamorous, something I’m not. “It’s beautiful but it might be too much, it’s still an option though, extremely pretty.” Katherine nods and we go into the limo, about 20 minutes later we stop, we’re at a country club, absolutely not. That’s too much. “No, it’s just not Harry and I.” Katherine again nods and we head for the limo and are in there for about 45 minutes. I get out to a beautiful open area, willow trees everywhere, a lake behind it. Then a small castle behind all of it, “This.” Gemma says “This is gorgeous.” “Katherine, this is it. This is where we will get married.” She shows us around, we would get married in front of the lake under the trees. Since it will be in fall, the fall colors will be everywhere. There will be golf carts to take the guests to the castle for dinner, and to party. Katherine smiles, and writes something down.
We get back into the limo and go to her building again. She shows me the centerpieces, the first one was, a white and red rose large flower ball, extremely tall covered in crystals. I look at it and automatically know that it’s too much. I look at the middle one, it’s smaller, red roses, in small vases, bedazzled in diamonds. Gemma comes up to me, “Does she not know the meaning behind simple?” I try not to laugh but it’s hard. The last one is a few vases with roses and a few white ones, with candles. I smile, “This one.” Katherine smiles and writes something down. “Well, that’s enough for the day. Thank you for coming here.” She kisses our cheeks and we leave. “I can’t wait for this wedding. It will be beautiful.” Gemma says looking out the window, I smile.
I’m getting married, I’m marrying Harry Styles, just a month ago I was sitting in my shared apartment with Skylar, dreaming about when I’d see him for the first time, what I would do. I never thought I would be living in London with him, madly in love and getting married. I take my phone and text him quickly knowing he might not respond, he’s very busy but he will receive it sometime. ‘Thank you.’ I go to put my hone back into my pocket but it goes off, Harry’s name pops up, ‘What for love?’ He responds, ‘For loving me for me.’ I text back. He sends me a smiley face and then I text him ‘I love you.’ ‘I love you more.’ He says, I smile and we make it home. I get out of the car and go inside for lunch. ‘I picked a venue and the centerpieces.’ ‘What do they look like?’ he asked, ‘the venue is a quiet little lake, surrounded by willow trees, and a small castle in the background for the dinner and reception. Nothing too fancy but it’s stunning. The centerpieces are just red roses in vases, with candles around it.’ ‘Sounds almost as beautiful as you.’
I smirk and giggle; he calls me before I respond. “Stop blushing you adorable little thing you.” He says, I giggle again “God, I miss your voice. I miss your touch, your kiss. Leigh, I just miss being around you.” “I know Harry, I miss everything about you.” We both sigh, and sit in silence, “How’s everything going?” “Alright. I’m just pretty down all the time.” “Why?” “Leigh, I miss you so much.” “Harry baby, I miss you so much it hurts.” “Damn it! I gotta go get ready for the concert. I love you Leigh-Ann Rae, more than anything in this world. I can’t wait till we can start our lives together as husband and wife.” “I love you more Harry. Have a good show; call me when it’s over.” He lingers on the phone before sighing and hanging up, a tear falls when I realize he’s gone.
I miss him more than I’ll ever be able to explain. We have 5 more days until we see each other, I don’t know how or if we can make it there. I’m staying at home for the night, I’m tired and hurting. Gemma decides go out with her friends again tonight, she said she might not be home, she’s probably staying with one of her friends, I mean I’m okay being here without her but I’m not okay being here without Harry. I’m starting to feel empty inside; being away from him is the worst feeling in the world.
