Bleach. Life in the real world (Grimmjow x reader)

Love?

I was so shocked at what Grimmjow had just said.
"...Grimmjow...."
"I knew it, you would never love a monster like me..."
Gimmjow then got out of the hug and turned around and walked away. *WHY WHY COULD'T I SAY ANYTHING!!!* I tried to yell out his name but nothing came out. I just stood there with my head down and one hand holding my other arm as I watched Grimmjow walk away. I stood there for about a half an hour, I was going to walk away but then I felt a hand grasp my wrist. I turned to see Gin standing there just without his normal sneer.
"What's wrong [y/n]?"
"N-nothing..."
"Then what are these doing here?"
Gin leaned in and wiped away the tears that were falling down my face that I didn't even know they were there.
"I-I ummm d-don't want t-to talk about it..."
Gin then wen't back to standing up straight.
"Alright then...at least let me accompany you back to your room."
"O-ok...."
I then walked to my room with Gin at my side. When I got to my room Gin left, I fell onto my bed, curled into a ball, hugged my pillow and cried.
"why.....just...........why......."

Grimmjow's POV

*WHAT WAS I GOD DAM THINKING!!! NOW SHE HATES ME* For some reason I found myself at the door of [y/n]'s room. I then heard someone crying, I put my head up against her door. All I heard her say was "why just why" over and over and over again. *I'M SO STUPID!!!!* I got back up and walked away. Once I got to my room I took out my zanpockto and started destroying everything in my room.

Reader's POV

When I finally dragged myself out of my bed I went to my bathroom and looked at myself, my eyes are puffy and bloodshot, and my face was tear stained. I took off my clothes and got in the shower, *This is what I need, a nice relaxing shower to calm my nerves* I turned off the shower and put a towel around my chest. Then....
"[y/n]."
I turned to Ulquiorra in the door way.
"AHHHHHHHH ULQUIORRA GET THE HELL OUT I'M ONLY IN A TOWEL!!!!!"
"But..."
"NO BUT'S GET OUT!!!"
I then shoved him out and closed the door. *(Ulquiorra's thoughts:) I'll never understand females* then I heard him leave my room. *thank god, does he have any respect for people even for his own......sister...*
"ugh why am I thinking he is my brother, this all has to be a lie or a bad dream"
I then dried my hair and got dressed in the ridiculous arrancar "uniform" that was in my closet. I left my room and was walking towards Grimmjow's room. I was going to knock but it felt as if i couldn't move my hand at all. I didn't even know if Grimmjow was even in there. I sighed and left.
"Why am I doing this to myself...."
What I didn't know was that Grimmjow was in there and was listening. I wanted to tell him how I feel too, but...
~Flashback~
~"I knew you would never love a monster like me..."~
~End of flashback~
*how am I supposed to tame the beast within without hurting him and cause him to not like him* I was so lost in thought I didn't know where I was going and I bumped into someone. That someone being....Nnoritora.
"Hey watch it wuss"
"I'm not a wuss...."
"Then why are you trembling?"
I just hate that sneer of his. I HATE it so much!
"SHUT UP SPOON HEAD!!!"
Then I felt light headed and couldn't breath. I realized he was lifting me off the ground and choking me.
"What.Did.You.Say."
"........"
Then his grip got tighter and everything was going blurry.
"Let [y/n] go Nnoritora."
"Oh well isn't it my favorite loser...Grimmjow"
"I said let her go!"
"I'm not afraid of you or Ulquiorra! I can take BOTH of you!!!"
Everything was going dark and my hand went limp. /[y/n]....give in...givein to the darkness...../ without thinking I let the dark close in around me......