She Wanted to be Saved

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

I walked down the now very familiar hallway to the cafeteria getting a skim small hot chocolate and no sugar. It was late and the night nurses just started their shift and were busying them selves with patients. The green on the walls and just about everything this hospital owned had started to grow on me seeing it everywhere had become second nature even after sleeping here for five days straight. The hospital considering the situation of Jackson's state had let me stay the nights and no one had disagreed. I only went home once to get more clothes and pjs. My mum visited regularly and Stacy was there majority of the time but went home to sleep and let me sleep in the room with Jackson on one of the chairs that laid out to a bed but I never slept on the chair. My back hurt and my neck ached but I didn't complain sleeping next to Jackson was the only way I could sleep. I had become familiar with all of Jackson's nurses and we often had conversations I talked to them about school and how I was doing it from here then they told me about their children and partners. The teachers understood my situation and out of sympathy sent me homework which I completed at the hospital.

I pushed open the door 54 to Jackson's very own hospital room. The room was now littered with vases of flowers and sympathy cards brightening up the dull room but we didn't receive one get well card. Many of his friends came in giving me bright smiles and hugs which surprised me but I accepted them with a friendly smile.

I stood in the room and placed my hot chocolate down as there was a quiet knock on the door, "come in!"

Sophie my old friend came into the room alone bearing a bunch of beautiful flowers of various types and colours wrapped in purple paper with a box of assorted chocolates. Her chestnut hair was tied back in a ponytail and she had opted for a pair of dark jeans and her normal converses with a BVB t-shirt. Her eyes showed dark shadow crescents under them and her cheeks looked more hollowed, she looked tired and sad.

I considered her with a wary glare as she entered the room slowly and said, "hey Malory, I'm so sor.."

I cut her off, "no. If you came here to apologise don't even bother, I don't want your sympathy."

Her precious hazel eyes widened and she looked down towards her feet. Guilt overcame my emotions and I realised how she looked like the old Sophie, the one that was there for me when I had no one, the one that would call me late at night just to tell me about a new song she had found. She didn't deserve my guilt or my compassion she left me for the whores, she left me when I needed her.

She looked up to me with a new found fire in her hazel orbs, "you're right. I don't deserve your forgiveness and I should know better then to offer you an apology at this time but I will make it up to you Malory."

I looked up to her as my voice broke, "then what do you want?"

"I.. I want to be friends again.. And I understand if you don't want to but I just want to be on even grounds.."she breathed and looked at me with those eyes like she had when she accidentally broke my favourite Bring me the Horizon poster and I had forgiven her in an instant.

Seeing her like that so innocent, I broke, tears streaming down my face as I hugged my arms around my body. I had no one to talk to about anything my mum wouldn't understand and Stacy is going through to much and seeing my ex-bestfriend come in just when I need someone smashed the walls that I had built so high.

Her eyebrows rose with concern as she placed the flowers and box of chocolates on the table to the side, then rushed over to tightly wrap her arms around me. I stiffened for a second before relaxing into her old yet familiar embrace she soothed my hair and cooed me with the words of 'Hold on till May' by Pierce the Veil like we always used to do when the other was upset but it only made the sobs bigger and louder.

After my sobs had subsided and the tears had stopped she released me still holding my shoulder and we locked gazes, "I'm truly sorry Malory. I was wrong ever since that day I took the first step away from you I regretted it but I was to much of a pussy to break away from the pack of bimbo snobs. I'm not asking for any forgiveness, I don't deserve it but please just let me be there for you now. I promise that I won't leave you again."

I looked at her sincere eyes and nodded. She hugged me again and she stayed and we talked about everything and how she was now the new social reject because she told Taylor she was a stuck up bitch that could only get boys because she put out in front of the whole school at the cafeteria which earned her an after school detention and a high five from me.

After about an hour of talk and gossip she stood up, "well I better head off mum will be wondering why I took so long." She walked over to the table and retrieved the flowers and chocolates.

"The flowers are for Jackson and the chocolates are for you considering you have to sit in here you deserve something nice to eat," she smiled and handed them both to me.

I smiled back, "thank you, I guess I'll see you around?"

She beamed back, "yeah of course."

With that she left the room and I placed the flowers by the window adding yet more colour to the room and I opened the box of chocolates popping a hazelnut choc swirl into my mouth.

I looked down at Jackson he was still in his coma no sign of him getting better. I could see him slowly deteriorate from his hollow cheeks right down to his ragged and uneven breathing. I sensed that time was near, he was going to leave me. The boy that promised me he wouldn't leave me would. I breathed slowly and took his hand with mine kissing it.

"Jackson, baby," a tear escaped one of my already sore eyes and rolled down my cheek, "I understand if y-you have to go now. If it means you not being in this pain and going to a better place then so be it. I love you. I love you so damn much."

I scooped up the blanket from the chair and crawled onto the creaky hospital bed yet again. I snuggled up into his side and pulled the blanket to my chin soaking it in my salty tears until sleep overcame me.