Dont Hurt Me

Chapter Three: Sammy

Sammy

I run out of the shed that I had created myself after my parents were...gone...

I grab my bag, all full of my lists, notebooks, and notepads. It had also a red pen. Three.

I transport by foot. I hate cars. They get me places faster which is horrible because I just can't wait for the night to come.

That's when I kill.

Well, I haven't killed since November 2014 but I remember it all so vividly.

All the blood.

All the screams for help.

All the pain.

I only hurt the people that hurt me. So many people have hurt me.

They don't care about my emotions and they don't let me be happy. They just want me to be in pain.

So I give them a greater a pain. A pain in which they can't escape from until they take their final breath. Their last final words are almost always the same.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'll do whatever you want! Please stop!"

But it's too late. And at that point I usually stab them in their thigh,right where the artery is.

Or, if he wants it to hurt really bad...Stomach.

But that's not always fun because it can kill them instantly and I wouldn't be able to hear them suffer.

I wouldn't know how much pain they were in.

But their pain would never even compare to the pain that they gave me.

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I walk to my locker and I see him, Jamie.

He's on my list. The first day I met him I put him on my safe list. You see, I have a safe list and I have a kill list.

People on the safe list can come off the safe list and move onto the kill list if they hurt me or betray me. But people on the kill list must never come off the list.

Once you hurt me, you must pay and there is no getting out of it.

"Sammy. I need your help."

"What's wrong?"

"You need to save me from home."

"Why? what's going on at home?"

"I can't explain right now,...Just.....let me sleep at your house until I have some place else. Please."

"Sure, Jamie. No problem."

Why the fuck did I say that? I can't risk Jamie finding out anything! Then I'll have to kill him.

"Thank you so much! I love you!" He says, hugging me afterwards.

I sigh softly. "You too, Jamie"

Suddenly I see a girl with short hair that she dyed pink walking in the hallway. Shes looking at jamie and I and walking in towards our direction.

She comes up to Jamie and just randomly starts making out with him. What the fuck? I'm shocked. For some reason a part of my heart just goes crazy and I'm freaking out. I'm so angry! And so...sad. What?

Jamie pushes her off of him and makes a slightly mad and confused face. He looks up and his face just goes blank.

"Nia!?" He says, hugging her shortly after.

"Hi Jamie! Look, I've missed you and I love you. I want us to be back together."

His face gets that angry look again. "Why haven't you answered any of my texts Phone calls? Hell I even emailed you!"

"We'll talk about that later. But now, you should be happy to see me."

"I am, believe me!.....I really really am..."

Then I saw her turn her head to the side with a very blank expression on her face. We make eye contact.

"Who's this?"

"Oh that's Sammy. He's kinda my best friend"

Ouch

"Oh. How nice." She says as she faces her body towards me. "My name is Nia. I'm kinda Jamie's girlfriend"

'Oh' my mind says, but I just shake her hand and say "Nice to meet you. Hopefully we'll become friends."

I guess those feelings weren't just my mind....That it wasn't all just fake.

I thought I was just going crazy or some shit but I do get attached to people way too quickly. And at the same time way too strongly.

I have to hide them because that'd obviously make people runaway. I'd be lonely again. I'd be hurt again. And I always end up hurting people that hurt me.

And now I'm kinda just stuck, because I have Jamie on my good list but he hurt me.....He fucking hurt me.

I mean,I know he didn't mean to hurt me. He doesn't know he hurt me.

But he still hurt me. And pain is pain.