I don't know if there's a cure for this.
I don't know if I'll ever get normal.
I don't know if there's some magic plant or drink or whatever. I think I'm going to have to live with this the rest of my life. Sure, I've been praying for hours everyday hoping I get better, but if I did, what would I say? The media would be swarming me all the time asking questions. My friends well if I still have them, would get suspicious. Everyone would ask me what happened. And I don't know what I would say. I can't really tell them I was a monster. They'd think I'm crazy and send me to get help. And those that would believe me would leave me and be afraid..
I probably really did deserve to be like this. Every celebrity has their moment to shine but every celebrity also has their moment to fall.
It was morningtime.
The day after I saw Selena.
I groaned and opened my eyes to see that I was on the ground as usual. I got up and brushed myself off. I wonder what she thought when she saw me. Maybe she was mad because I came to her when she didn't want to be reminded of me. Or sad when she was trying to forget me. Maybe even happy because she knows I'm alive. I don't know. I'm just glad that she didn't see what I really looked like. Hopefully she doesn't tell anyone including Taylor. Taylor Swift is Selena's best friend and she was mine too. But she started to hate me for hurting Selena. Soon enough, she completely hated me and wished I disappeared off the face of the earth. I wouldn't actually blame her. I really was terrible to Selena back then. And now I kinda agree with Taylor. I wish I would have disappeared too.
Soon it was a boring afternoon. I did the usual. I ate, I took a nap, and I just sat there hoping no one would find me. I tried to see if I could hear any of my music but no one was playing it. It was all new and unfamiliar to me. I'm sad that I can't go out in public anymore and just act normal. But at least I still have my mind and common sense. I usually never really thought about anything before. But now the world's open to me in so many ways. I think I got smarter in the past few months too. I realized that maybe I should have treated my life better back then. I should have loved it more and be thankful for it, like when I was poor and living in Stratford. At least something good's coming out of this. Right?
It was night now. Meaning no one was around. So I roamed the streets, just taking a walk. But I found myself listening to Selena sing again. Her voice was distant but I tried to listen to as much as I could. I smiled remembering all the concerts of her's I went too. Like when I surprised her and sang with her. I tried to sing Love Will Remember, but it came out a horrifying growl that made me wince. Did you know that song was about us? Well of course it was but when I heard it, it made me almost cry. I really hurt her and I was such an asshole to her. But I quickly got over it with a couple shots of vodka and some partying. Ugh.
I couldn't help myself. I went back to Selena's backyard and surprisingly, she was out there too. She was standing there, looking at the stars. I stood far away just looking at her. But she saw me and she frowned. I didn't really wanna run away this time. She walked to me and she carefully looked at me. I covered my face with my hoodie. "J-justin?" She said with her voice breaking. I didn't say anything because I was afraid I would freak her out. I breathed lightly and stayed silent. She was breathing heavily with tears spilling her eyes. Please don't cry. Please don't. She wrapped her arms around me, her head up to the middle of my arms. She hugged me like there was no tomorrow. I found myself hugging her back. After maybe a few minutes of us just standing there under the stars, she pulled back and wiped her eyes. "I missed you." She whispered. I didn't say anything but I just lightly smiled. "Why aren't you saying anything?" She tilted her head. "Forget it. You don't have to say a word. Just come with me. Please." She said, grabbing my arm. She tried to take me to her house but I didn't budge. "Please Justin." She said, frowning. I gulped and gave in to her. She took me in her house and turned on the lights, making me wince. It was so bright. But oh no. She can't see what I looked like. I panicked and covered my face. I peeked and she looked at me closely. "Justin?" She asked me. She sat me down and took my hands off my face. Against my will, she made me look at her. My eyes were wild with fear and anxiety. She was gonna kick me out after this. I know it. But she just stared at me and unexpectedly hugged me.
"Baby.." She said. She took off my hoodie and smiled lightly. "You're still Justin to me. You always will be." Selena said. I looked at the ground, blushing. I sat there shyly. I still meant something to her. "You don't know how sad I was. How sad everyone was." She said while sitting next to me. I looked at her and she frowned. "Can you say anything?" I sadly shook my head. If I could, I'd say how much you mean to me, I thought. She just gave me a sad smile. "It's okay. As long as I have you with me, I'll be fine." Selena said while standing up. She pulled me to the bathroom and made me sit down. She took a paper towel and wiped off all the blood that was on my face. And there was a lot of blood. She kissed my head, making me blush even more and she stood in front of the mirror. I stood with her and looked at the reflection. I hissed and growled at it, thinking it was someone else with her. But Selena just reassured me and I realized it was me. How could Selena still love me? My eyes were horrifying I had cuts on my face. I had fangs. I was really tall and I didn't look anything like myself.. "What do you wanna do now?" She said softly. I shrugged and she just smiled. I went with her to the couch and we sat down. I had her in my arms and I gently stroked her hair. I was scared I'd hurt her. But I didn't. She held my other hand tightly and I found the courage to kiss her. I kissed her and it felt so good. Wow. It was just like 2010 again. When we were dating and we kissed for the first time..
Our mouths collided and sparks flew and it never felt so good. I moaned lightly and she did too. I made a little growl and she chuckled. We both pulled back and I've never been more happy. She accepted me for who I was now. And maybe just for this moment, I did too. I held her more in my arms and we laid down the couch. "I love you Justin." She said, while falling asleep. "L-love. Y-y-you." I managed to get out before it became a full on growl. I closed my eyes and held her tightly. For once I didn't feel like an animal. I wonder if I'll feel the same way, tomorrow.

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