Victorious Love (VICTORiOUS ff)

Chapter 5

Jade left the caravan with a feeling of guilt, but also anger - at herself. Why hadn't she just brang out a short "I love you" or "I'm sorry"? She felt like she was the coldest person in the world. She didn't even understand why Beck loved her. She was a complete mess and always rude, especially to him.

Walking home, she couldn't think about something else, so she didn't even notice Sinjin sitting behind a bush with binoculars. He got excited once he saw her, which made him rustle in the bush accidently.

Jade turned to the side confusedly, looking for something in the bushes, but he could hide completely and she didn't bother to look for what was in the bush, so she went on to open the front door.

Once she stepped in, she saw all the unwashed dish on the counter and her very little excitement for the day disappeared. She let out a sigh, but didn't go after the dish. Instead, she went into her room and lay on her bed, staring at the ceiling.

Why couldn't Beck be lying next to her? She just wanted to cuddle into his arms and fall asleep with her head on his chest, hearing his calm heartbeat. She loved his sweet smell and the soft way he treated her even when they were fighting. He would never honestly hurt her, neither physically nor mentally.

With him she felt safe, like nothing else mattered and like he protected her of anything. But without him, she couldn't even think straight. She only blamed herself for anything, for being the way she was, for existing. *I love him*, she thought.

Trina walked towards Jade's mother's lot, looking for Sinjin behind any trees or bushes. Once she had found him, she walked towards him, intending to blame him for resetting the amount of her Slap followers.

"Sinjin!", she screamed, causing him to jump. The nerd with the light curls turned around irritatedly, unintentionally staring into her mad eyes, but he simply ignored the madness and sighed in relief that it was Trina who had caught him. "Oh, it's just you", he said calmly.

Trina stared back in disbelief. "Just me? Are you kidding me?", she yelled, but he didn't even listen. He just turned around again and continued looking throgh the binoculars into Jade's room. Was Jade so much more interesting to him than she was? "Excuse me?", Trina raised her voice to get his attention back, but he didn't move. "Not now", he mumbled instead.

Trina started bursting. "Are you gonna turn around to me!?", she screamed in a loud and furious voice, but he didn't even think of turning around. "Sorry Trina, I'm really busy", he stated. She couldn't believe it. "Busy?", she asked, getting even angrier. He was too busy for her? When had he ever been?

"Yeah, don't you see?", he responded, still staring into the window. "Okay", Trina mumbled in disbelief and disappointment, but pretending not to care. She did, for sure, she was so angry at him, but he didn't listen to her anyway.

She was about to go back home, when he finally turned around to her. "Would you like to talk in the janitor's closet tomorrow?", he asked. Trina looked back at him, confused like hell feeling some kind of... No. Could this be true? Was it really some kind of... Attraction? No, no way.

Sinjin was still waiting for a response and already raised the binoculars as he was about to turn around again. "No, I mean yeah, of course", she answered stuttering. Sinjin stopped confusedly. "Okay", he responded, sounding as confused as her, unsure about what was wrong with Trina. Not knowing how to ask her, he continued turning around and looked through his binoculars again.

"See you then", Trina mumbled confusedly and turned around to go back home.