I always knew that Maria liked Chris but I never thought Chris would break up with Precious like ever. They have broken up before but they always get back together. So of course I was like it isn't going to last long. But I was sooo wrong, as soon as Maria found out that Chris and Precious was over she wiggled herself into his life she never talked to him when he was dating Precious and now all of a sudden she's texting him all the time on kik. But I tried not to care and pretend not to be bothered by Chris always all of a sudden busy right when they started texting I was put to the side every time we hung out he rudely texted Maria in front of me as I talked to him he would nod every now and then until I left him outside with him still sitting there texting Maria. Angry would be an understatement I was furious. Maria is one of my best friends believe it or not and she doesn't even know it. So I put my feelings for Chris behind and was happy for her always support their relationship even though there wasn't one yet I knew they had feelings for each other whenever I brought Maria up in a conversation his eyes would light up and he would always have a cheeky smile. All I would want is for him to be happy even if it's with my best friend. I shouldn't let my feelings get in the way of theirs since he actually likes her he would never look at me that way the twinkle, the smile he rarely smiles at me like that. He's only had that twinkle in his eye one time when we were at the park in the rain, that was probably the best day of my life I just want to pretend the days we spent together never happened to lessen the blow if they do become a couple I know i'll be torn but I'll get over it eventually.
So I hang out with my friends like I usually do only to see Maria looks happier, which im happy about she deserves happiness just like the next she talks about Chris non-stop. I noticed she stopped hanging out with me at lunch so she could hang out with Chris and I would sit there awkwardly, it didn't matter I just didn't involve myself into any of the conversation and usually wondered off somewhere to think and let her sit with Chris as they were bunched together like peas in a pod as much as I wanted to be happy for her it was sickening because the day they started talking two of my friends were taken away from me. Chris because he never payed attention to me because he was always texting Maria, we hung out less and less and apparently Maria said he didn't like me but before her we were friends just the other day. But I believed her and decided to stay away for sake because I know she didn't show it but the way she acted since I lied and told her I didn't like Chris anymore I knew she didn't believe me I knew she didn't want me around him I was a threat but she's way prettier than me I don't know why she ever felt she needed to keep him away from me it hurt yes but I lost her as well. She didn't want me around and I was slightly glad I didn't want to see them together it was a blessing the guy you like never see's you but you know who he does see he see's your beautiful friends. It's typical, guys are only for looks we were good friends and Chris is a liar to say we never had a connection or he never felt anything but now I just sound desperate. It's not like him and Maria hung out when he was dating Precious, it's not like they were friends before they decided they liked each other, no he told me they had some fling last year and he liked her ever since some shit like that.
It hurt a lot seeing them together and Precious hated it as well she wanted to fight Maria and honestly I used to be afraid of Precious but I don't know why I started talking up to her and she doesn't have nothing to say back. Whenever she brings up fight I say you wanna fight me she gets quiet. honestly I was never scared of her just curious didn't know what she was capable of but I know now nothing. Maria stayed out of the drama the best way she thought she could by not dating Chris but she didn't stop texting him I doubt there was a time she wasn't texting him and I knew it whenever I was texting him I would ask him what are you doing even though i knew the answer i asked anyway he would always reply "texting Maria why" I would say "oh nothing just curious" he would say OK hbu. I would just stop texting him and tell him tomorrow that my phone died and I would go to sleep thinking what is wrong with him or is it me am I ugly, am I not smart enough, am I not good enough, I know i'm not that experienced in relationships but I've been in enough to know enough ,but no I've never kissed a boy is that bad. Maybe he can tell how un- experienced I am, when him and Precious dated their hands were all over each other it was nauseating. They did it in class like there was nothing wrong with it but there was she wasn't me I wasn't her and I never would be not that I would ever do that I'm not into public affection. The days go on extremely slow as I'm in science with the teacher I hate the most but at least it's Friday the weekend will be a blessing I can't wait. When class is over I bolt out the classroom but the other class is always waiting for next period so their always outside the door so of course my eyes caught Chris's eyes that I dreadingly had to look away besides were not friends anymore it's not like he tried to save what we had he let it all go down the drain for a girl.
