I walked in my house and slammed the door, five minutes later I heard his door slam as well at least I know he's as angry as I am I want to let him in as soon as possible but I can't he let me go for Maria again she has him wrapped around her finger. I laid in my bed I threw my phone on the table knowing in about one s...... it started to ring vibrate all over the place. I read the first text to see how we would go about this it said Savannah answer me...nope I turned my phone off. I got some chocolate Ice cream and just started eating it. I heard Chris cursing next door then I heard his door open and slam he left to go get high with Chris and I know it. I put on my saddest playlist I had on my computer for days like this. I plugged my headphones in my ears. I laid down and stared at the ceiling thinking about what happened today if he wanted to be my friend he wouldn't have ended it in the first place. I thought about how many times he stared at me each time I got butterflies but was instantly reminded that I was mad at him but it didn't help that I was still squirming at his stare that makes butterflies erupt like a volcano. I squeezed my eyes shut thinking about how I got myself in this situation. I tried to get my mind off of Chris, so I thought about how the teacher told us there was going to be a new student. On Instagram we saw a post that said on Jacobs page saying he was going to a new school in Sacramento for getting in trouble at home. So he has to go to a poor school, I was like no way but there was no way it would be our school. He even said on twitter that he doesn't know what school he's going to he flew here yesterday so he's starting tomorrow.
I got up and looked through my freezer thats easy to make and yummy to eat that i was also in the mood for. I looked until I fell upon some waffles, I decided to pop them in the stove. I warmed up the stove turning it to 450 degrees. I waited until I knew it was hot enough. I put them on the last rack, I kept checking them to make sure they didn't burn, they started to turn golden I pulled them out and smothered butter and poured syrup all over my waffles. I put them on a plate and scarfed them down they were delicious since walked are my favorite food but I didn't enjoy them as much as I was thinking of Chris the entire time. To get my mind off of him I turned the tv on deciding to watch cartoons, cartoons airways make me feel better. I decided on watching courage the cowardly dog one of my favorite shows. I sheets watch a different show while the other is one commercial so I decided to watch Jessie. I really got into the shows that I forgot I had to do my chores. I jolted out my seat and started doing the dishes. I don't really like being up when my mom gets home for work so I checked the time it was 6:30 so I had half an for to shower than go to bed. I took a long 20min shower then threw on some pajama shorts and a tank.
I laid in bed starting at the ceiling forgetting about not thinking about Chris how am I going to pretend like I don't like him. I would rather us be friends then not be friends with him and let Maria control him like a voodoo doll. I groan in frustration maybe it'll be easier to just ignore him forever, so I don't have to worry about liking him any deeper than I do I can't get closer to him I don't want to be hurt in the end. I let it go fur today my plan is to avoid him and ignore him if he didn't see me he can't talk to me maybe I'll introduce the new kid with Isabel. We can show him around, let him sit with us at lunch, and we could become friends if he's nice. I fell asleep thinking about the new kid hopefully he's hot. I woke up in the worst position with drool hanging out my mouth and I had a kink in my neck. I shifted uncomfortably and shot up not able to take another second in that position. I threw on some skinny tights, a white crop-top that says 1991, and a white and blue tie-die jean jacket, with some Timberlines. I was ready to impress, hopefully the new student is cute, or hot. I threw my hair in a messy bun and bolted out the door. I jumped over the fence of my apartment not feeling like going all the way around. I quickly ran to catch up with my group of friends already talking I joined in. We were talking about the new kid what he would look like if it's a boy if he's cute or hot maybe she's a girl she might be really nice and get along with my group of friends perfectly. We were later than usual so everyone was already walking to class we walked into class right when the bell ring. We sat in our seats and right ad we say down the whole class erupted with whispers about the new student. Just as everyone got more into the conversion the classroom door shot open see a cute boy walk through the door you could tell that he knew he was hot because he scored up a chair and plotted himself right next to us. I looked at him amused he didn't know us but he had the guts to introduce himself and invite himself to sit with us I wasn't surprised since he was Jacob Sartorius. I grabbed as he kept glancing at Isabel but she was nervous and she tended to be shy when it came to guys she usually kefir to herself and it took a while before she lets a guy into her life. So it was cute I swear I saw her smile a few times and he grinned like he already won her over and I knew he had just by the way he continually and continually flirted with her she tried her best to ignore him but she couldn't help but blush a few times and I was glad she hadn't been in a relationship in a while so I was happy for her. We talked and introduced him to all our friends at lunch I made sure there was only room to sit by Isabel for Jacob to sit I could see her glare at me from across the table. I inwardly laughed at her seriousness, I'm positive I saw Jacob wink at me for saving that spot for him I just waved him off saying your welcome with my hands. We walked and talked and fit to know about him more about why he moved here the first place and why he had to come to this school in the first place. We learned he's no different than us, he lives to hang out with his friends, listen to music, you know regular teenage stuff. Isabel continued to be stubborn and ignite him when she had a intersect guy in front if her trying to win her heart over was she that blind but I can't really say anything while I was ignoring Chris the entire time he kept staging at me trying to get my attention when Maria was too engrossed in Jacobs stories about his life and his friends back home and how he got famous I wasn't very interested in his stories but everybody else was even Isabel for one the only people not paying attention to him was me and Chris joy I decided to pretend to have to use the bathroom. Chris all of a sudden got yo as well and rushed up to me,I kept on waiting like I hadn't even heard him behind me. Until he pulled my wrist to stop me from going any further, I started at the ground not wanting to look him in the eye.
He put his index finger under my chin and lifted my head to look at him. He sighed and with the look in his eyes I couldn't take it a tear slipped down my face I didn't even notice until the pad of Chris's thumb wiped it away. I looked away this isn't right he had a girlfriend or a girl he likes at least, plus he just got out of a relationship. I don't want to be that rebound I struggled out of his grip and ran as fast as my legs would let me go I couldn't dare look at his face to see the hurt in his eyes but what about my hurt. I walked into my last class of the day and did what I always do when I'm sad listen to music until class is over which is exactly what I did I thought about what happened sometimes Chris is sweet other times I hate him but I don't really hate him because I could never hate him it's close to impossible.
