Since its Friday I'll have all weekend to mope and rest chocolate ice cream. I still felt like shit, so I put on my lazy out fit sweats and and oversized sweater, that sounded really comfy right now so that's what I wore. I walked out the door not worried about my backpack I wouldn't need it, it's Friday so who cares. I walked past Chris's door and heard it swung open I tried not to look back at him but I did his eyes looked apologetic, sorry, angry, and an emotion I couldn't really out my finger to. But I let it go and looked away he didn't try to talk to me he knew it was over. I kept walking past him until we got to school, I thought about him all the way there I never thought we would Ever be this broken and far apart what happened why? There was only one person that could be responsible fur the hurt me and Chris was going thorough ever since she walked herself in Chris's life everything has went down hill from there and it's ask her fault I began to hate her even though there was really nothing I could do about it she didn't purposely make him feel that way I know there was other stuff behind why she dated Latroy but she was still at fault for telling him she like Latroy who does that to a guy. Number one rule never tell a guy that you like another guy even if your not together it's just you just don't do that especially if that guy likes you. She knew Chris life her but she didn't care I don't know what was going through her mind when she decided to tell him that it's like any feelings she ever felt for Chris just suddenly vanished but that was no way to tell him. Even if she felt that way she had tormented me those days they stayed huddled together as if they were in a relationship but they weren't and now she doesn't even like him.
I decided to talk to bel about it I adjusts talk to her about everything and besides she says were closer anyway. So I know she'll hang out with Mr if I decide to ignore Maria it's just what she did besides Maria will always have Jovyann, Virginia, and Jayme. So I walked up to her "Isabel can we talk" she nodded a little unsure but she knew it was important. I let all my feelings soil from about Chris to about what he said yesterday, audio about how I think Maria used him and that I want to stay away from the both of them. "Wow I'm sorry he says that but I can kick his ass fit you if you want" I shook my head I don't want annoying to do with him right now maybe forever. But it didn't still him from trying to talk to me. He tested, he called, he followed me everywhere trying to get my attention. A month went by and I still hasn't forgiven him it was also funny how hard he was trying to apologize only a few things stood out. He made a big poster in front of my window dating he was sorry everyday I thought about him I ended up crying and eating ice cream. I walked out my house and decided to get more ice cream from 7/11. As I was waking there I saw a car crash happen right before my eyes it was crazy but I was glad I had nothing to do with it,I went into the store and grabbed my favorite ice cream paid then left down the street. I laid in my bed waiting for strip to take over it effectively did after I finished my tub of ice cream. Man I'm going to get fat. I woke up with a to much sweets tummy ache I put on my favorite skinny jeans and a purple long sleeve crop top, and threw on my black vans. I ran out the door since I was late to school when I walked into class everyone started showing and laughing, done pointed at me I looked at myself did I have a huge stain on my outfit or something. I looked down.........nothing. Maria walled over to me and smirked, she handed me get phone with something already on the screen, I looked down and read it, it was a text I sent to bel. It said Omari is a sexy God and that I want him to sex me back to sleep. I groaned last nights dinner suddenly felt a lot closer to my throat then it did a second ago but I pushed it back. She laughed in my face"the whole school had seen this, now stay away from Chris". What she didn't get is that I didn't want Chris, and I'm positive he didn't want me." I.....I...don't want Chris that's why you don't get I've never wanted him, but your too blind to see it."tears threatening to spill I pushed them back I had to get this out." You were to jealous to see that you had him all along you pushed him away stupidly and played with his emotions and you enjoyed it, you think that he'll always come back to you but he won't he doesn't want a slutty bitch like you." I walked out the classroom, as I did I made eye contact with him, he looked disappointed, and sad, he pitied me I don't want his pity, I want his love. I walked past him and out the school even though I heard foot steps behind me I kept on going, it started to rain curse the rain. I knew it was him but I couldn't face him right now all my built up emotion is at an all new high how much worse can my life get at this point. He won't make it any better if anything it will only get worse, I ignored his pleads for me to stop he tugged at my wrist. I angrily turned around with tears streaming down my face. He spoke I hadn't heard his voice in a while and as much as I hated him right now I couldn't help love his voice right now. He sounded fragile, and careful with his words like one wrong word he would break down, but I was wrong he broke down right here right now. "Savannah I'm everything you said I was an asshole, a jerk, a douche bag everything I said that day was so uncalled for and I meant none of it, I have been trying everyday to get you to forgive me and I'll keep on trying everyday until you do but today I want to be here for you, what those kids did to you was stupid, childish, and uncalled for, I'm sorry they... I cut him off, I hugged him like without him I would die, and he hugged me just as tight I didn't care I was mad at him he's pouring his heart out in the rain and I was too hurt, and fragile to care about what those kids said all I wanted was to be in his arms forever. I stayed in his arms until I wasn't crying anymore I'm positive his sweater was soaking wet, but he didn't care. He took off his sweater and handed it to me, I whispered a thank you I was really cold and I didn't care that his sweater was soaking wet I know he was only being like this because he wanted to be friends, nothing more, he wanted to gain my trust again and as much as I would love for us to be more than friends at least he was showing effort. I didn't care as long as I was next to him even if we were just friends, I accepted his sweater and slid it on it smelled just like him, like cologne he put on this morning that's kinda faded by now but still a hint of him. I loved it, we walked together in silence a comfortable silence I didn't want to go back to school but I couldn't go home either my mom would kill me and well that wouldn't be a pretty sight do I decided to just walk around the park far off school grounds I never thought of this till now." Chris go back to school I don't want you missing school because of me, plus I don't want you to get in trouble by your mom what would you tell her as to why you skipped school." He sighed," Savannah right now you need me, I don't give a Fuck about school, but I do care about you, I'll just tell my mom that I almost got into a fight so I left campus for a bit too calm down, I'm going to stay with you till fourth period I'll go back at sixth just to make my story believable but be here after school ok" I narrowed my eyes at him no way in hell his mom would believe that but I let it go and nodded knowing he won't take no for an answer we sat at a bench while I rested my head on his shoulder with his arm around my waist this was prefect. While we were talking time went by fast, and before I knew it Chris had to go back to class, I was sad to say the least but I knew he'd be back so I sat there and waited.I played on my phone random games and checked Intstagram and kik I kept checking the time, school just got out so he should be on his way I knew he probably stopping by his house so he could drop his stuff off so I gave him 30min before I decided I would walk to his house and check on him even though 30 min is even a lot since we live across the strret from the school but none the less I waited, I waited and waited until an hour passed, then two until I heard a rather loud and excrutiating loud bang like a car crash, I saw a big crowd of people near the street. I ran over there and saw someone got hit by a car I instantly knew it was him my heart rate picked up tears started to prick the corners of my eyes, I walked pass the other people to see Chris my heart shattered literally broke in two. He looked horrible his body laying helplessly on the ground as if he was dead I cried like he had died what if he does die an ambulance came and he was lifted inside, I rushed to his side looking like a blurry mess. I knew since he was always there for me I had to be there for him, they wouldn't let me get on and go with them so I screamed at them, me and all my blurry crying mess that I was, was yelling at the paramedics guys. They finally let me on, I was so relieved I could cry harder. He looked slightly awake, "Chris" I cryed out his name hoping he could hear me. "Hmmm" he replied I felt my heart thump against my chest so hard if it did it again I might fall on top of him. I cried harder reassuring him he was going to be okay. "Savannah........I. love........" he shut his eyes"Chris" "Chris...you love what" "if you were going to say I love you then I love you too" I whispered. I knew he couldn't hear me but I at least wanted him to know. I knew it was stupid of me to think he might love me, he was in a horrible state of course he didn't mean it was just in the moment right?
