I love Thursday's, Thursday's are a day away from Friday the last day of school before the weekend. I laid in bed as I thought about how much I cried yesterday I know I shouldn't care that much but I do I never ready key myself get hooked on to one guy but I did and it just so happens to be Chris Kinova. I started at the ceiling thinking about what I'm going to do to stay away from him maybe I shouldn't hang out with Maria for a while let Chris and Maria get closer than he won't be bothered by me he'll be to infested in the relationship with Maria. I just want to pretend me and Chris never happened we were never friends. I do my regular routine getting ready for school picking out a cute outfit I picked out a cute Jennifer Lopez sweater crop-top, blue skinny jeans,a grey infinity scarf, Brown bout boots, and get leg warmers. I quickly grabbed my backpack and ran out the door, I decided to walk out the gate today weird about ruining my clothes. I went to 7/11 and bought 4 bags of hot cheetos to share with my friends also Jacob. I walked to school a little late since I went to the store,I walked straight to class ashtray seeing Jacob stare at Isabel with a terrible in his eye and she tried to ignite him by focusing on her work how typical. Right when I pulled out a bag of chips, everyone and I set them on my desk letting them know they all could have some I found out that Jacob is a sucker for hot cheetos that's one thing he had in common with Isabel. I saw as they both went to grab chips at the same time right when their hands touched they both pulled back at the same time currently embarrassed neither of them decided to dig in the bag so I just poured them done in their hands. Jacob kept glancing at Isabel everyone he ate a chip, Ernst he didn't know was everyone he looked away Isabel fished at him. She walled out the classroom and before I got the chance to get up Jacob bolted out his seat. I washed to see what was going on but decided to let Jacob handle it. Do I say three for what felt like forever as I waited and waited for them to be done talking until I heard the door open and try both walked in together smiling. I whispered to her when she sat down "later tell me everything"she bogged as if saying ok. I relaxed in my seat getting comfortable until the shrieking sound of the bell went off.
I packed my stuff up pretty quickly since I didn't pull anything out for class except for a bag of chips that are now empty. The inky thing to put away was the packet the teacher handed out. I quickly made it out the classroom with the rest of my friends we found out that Jacob has every class with me. Must if them with Maria and Isabel but ask with me since they changed their period so they could be together and I am new stuck with Jacob all day but that I mind. We walked to class together, Jacob had now become good friends with mostly all the boys in the ninth grade Omar, Omari, Tj, Fernando,Teo, Travon, and and Chris. I hate saying guys name I wish I could disappear, I kept on walking thinking about stuff until Jacob asked "Why Isabel afraid of being hurt by another guy or send shy when it comes to relationships". Well...... I huffed knowing I was going yo have to give him a real answer. "One day a kid named Teo liked Isabel, Isabel liked him fur as long as she could remember but never let him full in her heart, she liked him more and more until one day the whole school found out that he also liked Edna, Isobel was devastated. She walled straight up to him and said if you can't make a choice right new about who you like then I knew it's her, he tried to tell her that wouldn't be true but she knew better than to believe him. She walled away knowing she wouldn't get an answer, she began to cry for days until she stopped I've day Teo obviously liked Edna more and I wanted to kick his ass but she wouldn't let me. I looked at him guys face was as red as a tomato, his jaw wad clenched, his fists were balled up, and he was walking hair he was walking like his mother died and he was about to kill the iteration who murdered her in this case Teo. I let him go wanting Teo to get this beat down, since Teo was in our class I walked in all cool, chill, and calm. He walked straight up to Teo and punched him in his chin first then straight in the nose I swear I heard a crack and that's when I ran towards Jacob to stop him Isabel wasn't in here yet and I didn't want her to see this it would only bring up memories of what happened but as on cute she walked in and looked flabbergasted. Jacob was cooled down now he walked up to her and held her hands in both of his, she looked firm at get hands, he used his index finger to lift up her chin. He looked straight in her eyes and said"your beautiful no one should tell you different, I love you Isabel and I know it's crazy we only meet today but I just know that there's something about you I'm not saying I want us to be together not yet at least but I want you too know that your mine" he looked in her eyes waiting for a response something to tell him she was okay with what he said. She ran out the classroom before Jacob could go anywhere I he's him back." Give get done space she'll choke around I promise that she likes you though because if she didn't she would have yanked her hands out your grasp like there want no tomorrow, I googled at my little joke and at least I got him to crack a smile. Jacob would be really good fur Isabel I haven't seen a guy Moshe Isabel smile, blush, and laugh like that in a long time actually since Teo but even Teo hadn't made her feel the way she does now and I know it. I can tell by the way she looks at him with a terrible in her eye like he's the most beautiful creature she had ever seen. I smiled at the thought of them being together cute, but my smile instantly went upside down when I see Chris in the classroom starting at me. I left the classroom not casting about what the teacher said, I walked past everyone tears threatening to spill but no one at this school had seen me cry, except for Chris and I don't want to increase that number.
I walked around school trying to find Isabel she was in the bathroom just starting at the wall. Before I could say anything she spoke up "what's wrong with me he's everything I want in a guy cute, protective, makes me laugh, charming, makes me blush, mashed me happy when I'm sad. Yet I keep pushing him away." I laughed when she said protective "you got that right" she googled a little but it soon faded. "Isabel there's nothing wrong with you, your just scared and trust me your not pushing him away if anything he wants you more, listen he infested what your going through I may or may not have told him but that's not the point he would have found out regardless". She nodded getting up she ran out the door straight back to the classroom where Jacob would be but we were informed that he was suspended and so was Teo. She frowned I walked up to her it's okay you'll see him on Monday it's only one day. He knows that you like him it's just hated fur you to shore it, she smiled at that but I knew she was still thinking about how she didn't get to talk to him when she was finally ready to she will eventually. I talked to Maria at lunch time because I hadn't seen her w with Chris today which is a blessing she said she didn't like him anymore that she was dating Latroy. That made my blood boil she played with Chris's emotions and she didn't even care. I could just snap get right now, she was still taking to me but right when she told me the news about Latroy I tuned her out I was too mad to care about what ever else she was taking about I didn't care. I walked away thinking shit how to talk to Chris, I feel bad for but talking to him he really needs someone right now especially since I knew he really liked Maria. School was out a long time ago, I had just wanted to talk to basis nite that I did the only person on my mind right now was Chris. I knocked on guys door twice before it swung open, he looked bad like he just admitted weed hiss hair disheveled, you could tell he ran his hands through it multiple times. His lips weren't as punk as they usually are they were pale white. "Do you wanna talk about it" " He laughed a dark laugh that couldn't be good. His eyes went dark, he was angry. "Now you want to talk I've been trying to get your attention all week, you always push away people who might care about you, maybe it because no one suss care about you, your dad left your mom for another woman so your stuck with your mom is always at work and when she does come home it's with multiple men your little brother hates you and your older brother raped you" I stood there shocked he instantly knew he was wrong. It was raining outside but I didn't care I ran past him and his attempts to artifice tears running down my cheeks. He passed a line he'd never Saud anything like that to me before no matter how much hurt he was going through from the pain of Maria breaking his heart then me ignoring him fur post month. He had no right to throw that in my face and talk about my family like that. I didn't know where I was going I didn't have a jacket yet out was raining and I'm now at the park doing what sitting in the rain sitting where me and Chris were sitting where we almost kissed. I cried harder thinking about how well never be that way he's probably liking for me but if he thinks he's ever going to get to talk to me now he's sadly mistaken. I still like him it's hard not to but right now I hate him with every ounce in my body I never want to see him again I cried at the park in the four what felt like hors it was dark and the rain had no sign of letting up. Last thing I remember, is falling asleep at the park. I opened my eyes confused as to where I was, I took in my surroundings and realized I was in Chris's apartment. I didn't see him so I got up to attempt to go home,I can't face him now, not now not ever. Right when I was about to reach the die he grabbed my wrist treats already threatening to spill brimmed my eyes"let go" Chris stated at me"I'm sorry"he could be sorry all he wanted"I HATE YOU,I NEVER WANT TO TALK, SEE, OR SPEAK TO YOU EVER AGAIN." At that point I saw hurt in his eyes and he knew he screwed up big time he lost me as a friend or anything more he thought I was. I opened and slanted my door I went straight to my beef and cried myself to sleep that night.
