The Wrong Side Of The Tracks (Sequel to TIASFTF)

The more that I'd like to forget

I was having nightmare by nightmare through out the night. Abuse, Killings, blood, scars, sucicide.  All of that haunted me in my dreams.  It was like a slideshow of my entire life me and my first day if school.  Everyone making fun if me for being different.  Then when my mom was diagnosed  with cancer then her funeral.  Then my father starting to abuse me.  I met Danene and found Rock music.  Then I started to cut and I was still living with my dad and he still abused me. The day Luis died.  The way Danene saved me from suicide.  When I saw police sirens from my bedroom window and my dad being carried out.  When I got my first job at the music shop.  Then the you now chat with Bret and when he called me later to meet up.  To when he invited me to hang with him and the guys and he gave me that bracelet.  Then he asked me out and I said yes.  next my birthday and when he asked to move in with him and then that call from Danene and everything  else played through out my mind like I was above watching them.

I was then shook awake.  It was Andy shaking my shoulder looking worried. I looked at myself and I was clutching the blanket below me in a fist.

I was breathing really hard and he looked very worried and tucked at loose strand if hair behind my ear.

I saw up and pulled my knees to my chest and laid my head onto of them.

"What happened? " He asked.

"I.... had a dream if my life practically  the bullying the killing the abuse the sickness the blood...ttthe scars everything. " He pulled me into a hug and I cried.

"Wh.. where's Bret? " I asked pulling back a little.

"Tyler called him and his band to lunch to talk over the album and Bret asked me to check up on you while he was gone he didn't want to wake you. "

"I wish he did wake me up that was the worst dream ever. "

I felt my neck and I was covered in sweat.  Andy left after I said I was going to take a shower.  I got up and got a change of clothes and went into the bathroom. I peeled the semi wet clothing away and stepped into the shower. 

I just sat there's feeling the water bead down my back.  I cried silently shaking my head.  I looked down at my wrists and thighs and saw scars everywhere.  I remembered where the bigger ones came from too.

I sighed and finished my shower. I got dressed and did my makeup. I went downstairs with my boots clicking against the hardwood.

I stepped off the last step and I heard a song from my bands new album.  I smiled  and saw CC on a laptop he brought.  He was air drumming to Danene's solo.

I smiled and saw Andy in the kitchen with Blade who must have dropped by this morning.  Andy was talking to Blade about the music industry that he gives to everyone. 

I walked in.

"Alright Andy don't scare away my new bassist we kind of need him for tour. "

He rolled his eyes and we decided  to go out for a late breakfast at IHOP.

I invited Mixi and Danene and Austin as well.

We arrived and I leaned against the car waiting for everyone else. They pulled up next to us.  We strode in and the hostess showed us to our table.

We Sat down and I just got a small thing of chocolate chip pancakes. I was looking out the window and I thought I saw Brets black Camaro  pull up to the place next to us.

I shook my head knew it wasn't it I'm just still messed up from my dream. The lady came by to take our order and Danene got like a lot if stuff..... I don't blame her but sheesh I forgot she's pregnant  and eats like that.