Start Over || Roman Reigns

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"Hi, I'm here to see Dr.Williams, I'm her 2'o'clock appointment." I said looking around the office. "Oh yes Miss , you can go right inside she is waiting for you." The assistant said with the fakest smile. I smiled back and walk down the hall to her office and open the door.I walked in to see Dr.williams on a chair trying to hang this picture up. I cleared my thoart and "Hello excuse me do you need help?" I said putting my micheal koirs bag down."Yes please"She said handing me the picture.

I took it from her and hang it up then my OCD started to kick in ; I was moving the picture and making sure it staright. I got down from the chair and fixed my dress and looked at her."Thank you so much, Hi Im Dr.Williams and you are?' she said placing her hand out for me to shake it."Hi I'm Amari." I said shaking her hand."oh yes, so what can I help with, sit down." she said grabbing her notepad and taking a sit.

"Where should I start?" I said playing with my nails."Well tell me what's gonna on with your life right now?"she said."Well I've been fighting with the my daughter's father, I fought his other daughter's mother, I had to go save my sister from her abusive ex boyfriend,  my best friend recently had a baby. My friends believe I might be depressed. " I said loking up to see her with a shocked experssion. "First off that's a lot of events happening in your life and two Depression is something serious that a young pretty girl like you should be going through so let try and find the problem." she said with a smile.

" Alright well when i was younger , I was molested by a family friend , I was mistreated by my dad's family, I  suffered alot growing especially in high school dealing with people who i thought was my friends and basically not standing up for myself." I  said thinking about my childhood.

 "Well I'm sorry to hear that but things happen for a reason either it makes you stronger or breaks you. Now tell me about your relationship with your bestfriend?" she said. " well we've been friends since I was 20 and that was like almost ten years ago. we live together but even with us living together we still managed to have drama between us to the point where I almost moved out cause of this beef thing her ex boyfriend had with me because I didn't like the way he was treating her. I love my bestfriend but our relationship is not the same we both are at different points in our lives that we havent realized that." I said.

"What do you mean by that?" she asked. " I mean its like I dont even know her anymore, I have a problem where I dont like when people leave me , its like why promise your gonna be there for me then leave like that." I said about to cry. " how would you describe yourself?" she asked. " I have a dominant personality, stubborn, headstrong .Its either love me or hate me. I'll forgive you if you mess up but I'll always remember. You'll fall completely in love with me or think that I'm crazy. I'm dramatic but chilled. I can be the most innocent person you will ever meet but I can be nasty when i want to be. Resilient is my middle name because when I get knocked down , I get right back up no matter what it is." I said.

" How do you have a past relationship that keeps trying to return into your life and how do you feel about it ?" she asked.

" I can't keep hearing the same lies, i love you, i won't hurt you, you're my everything but ou end up being asshole. I wont let my heart be break anymore. Just because you love someone doesnt mean yall meant to be together and that how I feel about my ex. My downfall is being too loyal. I may come off as mean and evil as shit but I have the biggest heart and I will give my last to those I truly fuck with. Somebody could fuck me over but I will still pick them if they fall." I said.

" No matter what you do,no matter how many times you screw up and think to yourself'theres no point to carry on',no matter how mny people tell you that you cant do it, keep going bcause a month from now you will be that much closer to your goal than you are now. Appreciate the things that are molding you into a better woman and even if it hurts you or you dont understand it you need it for who you are becoming. You are powerful and competent. " she said.

"You said something about your father's family mistreating you, why?" She asked.

"My mother has three kids with this man, My brother Rob, my sister Nia and I. He had a whole another life. I didn't know him until my sixteen birthday. He showed talking about wanting to know his kids. My siblings didn't want anything to do with him but me I wanted to know my dad. I was so happy because that's all I ever wanted. He asked me to come and visit his family. My mom told that I shouldn't rush and that I should take my time with my father side of the family. So one day he came and took me to meet his family. It was the worse day of my life. His other kids bullied me and his family members looked at as if I was a disease and when his wife hit me, he didn't even do anything. That day I was so heart broken." I said crying.

"Has this effected your relationship with any men?" She asked.

"Yes my relationship with my daughter's father, Joe. Joe and I were dating for three years when he got a called for his dream job. He left never looking back. I found out I was pregnant and basically things went downhill but now we're trying to fix our relationship for our daughter." I said.

"You should bring him in so we can talk and hopefully fix you guys relationship and continue to find a way to heal you." She said.

"Thank you so much for squeezing me in your busy schedule , I'll be back a week from now to continue the session with Joe, bye." I said getting up and shaking her hand before walking out the door.    

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"When she tells you to get help you do it but when I tell you need help, you go all bat shit crazy." Randy said.

"I thought you would be happy?"I asked.

"Oh don't get me wrong, I'm happy that your crazy ass is getting help but you never listen to me but you can listen to other people." He said.

"Well I'm her best friend,duh. I'm happy of you for going and I'm glad that you're taking Joe with you next time because lord knows you guys need therapy." Danica said.

"Whatever but how's my beautiful niece? " I asked her.

"She's perfect besides Brock trying to make her watch wrestling. I don't understand what he's expecting to happen with her watching it." She said.

"Maybe he thinks she'll be like Masina, that little girl is aggressive like she's always trying to fight people three times her size." Randy said.

"My baby is a warrior. She's just like her daddy. They always trying to spear somebody into the next dimension. " I said laughing.

"Laugh now but Joe's spears hurt like hell. I can still feel that shit." Randy said pouting.

"Awe poor baby." She said.

"I hate you." He said.

"I love you too." She said blowing him a kiss.

"You guys make me sick. You know what's so funny to me, I thought out of everybody in our group you guys would've ended up together." I said.

"Why does everybody say that?" He asked.

"Do you guys not notice the way y'all act around each other? " I asked.

"We act like best friends,duh." She said.

"Before not really but since y'all both are taken, now y'all act like best friends. Before y'all used to be cuddling on the bed, hell Randy even had his own area in your house. I didn't." I said.

"If you wanted your own area, you should've asked." She said.

"That's not the point. You guys were goals." I said.

"We're best friend goals." Randy said.

"Goalss." She said.