Therapy Session Poetry Series

Therapy Session 1

"Tell me more about yourself. Who are you?"

I'm 22, a writer, a reader, a pet parent, a fiancee?

"No not what you are.....who....you are..."

I don't know...

I can tell you i'm the kind of person who loves

Unconditionally, over and over, even when it hurts

It always hurts....

I get angry about people hurting others that are different

I use to not stand up for myself but now I stand for others

Because I know what it's like to not have courage

"Go on..."

I hate my mom....I have to....because I love her so much

All she's ever done is hurt me but if I don't hate her...

If I don't hate her it'll kill me every time she gets mad...

I get used by people a lot and I know it when they do

"Why?"

Because I crave the love of others....even if it hurts me to get it

I can't stand letting people down

Especially someone that hates me....I need them to like me even more

I guess I follow in my mom's footsteps unintentionally...

"How So?"

She fell in love with a gay guy and so did I

She falls for bad guys who hurt her and I use to also

She is bipolar and so am I

"That's what you are again..."

.....she lets others use her and hurt her and so do I

Why do people do that? Why do they use someone?

"You tell me"

Maybe it's because they start to get comfortable

They realize they can keep asking for more and you'll do it

They know you need them and they exploit you for it

I think I hate my mom because i'm a lot like her too

I think I hate myself a little too

"Why is that?"

Because I don't have a personality

I use others like they use me but I don't hurt them

I use them to find who I want to be

So maybe one day I can answer your question

Maybe one day I won't have to struggle to know who I am

Maybe one day I won't have to use others to find myself....

"Our time is up I'll see you next week"