Love & Lies: A Captain Swan Fanfic

Part 11/11

Here's the last part. Thanks for your responses! I'll be posting another multipart story called "Accidentally in Love" soon. ~Steph
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It had been over two months since Emma had quit "Love & Lies". She missed all of her cast mates and the crew. She missed the rush she got from acting. But, most of all, she missed Killian. She missed seeing his sparkling blue eyes and gorgeous smile every morning. She missed the way he touched her and how touching him made her feel. She missed sparring with him and having those unexpected moments when they let their guards down and were open with each other. Not being with him was harder than she ever imagined it would be.

In the past two months, Emma had tried to keep busy. She had taken a long awaited trip to Europe all by herself. She took cooking classes and learned how to make pottery. She had always wanted to learn a language so she started taking a French class once a week. Writing had become a passion and a creative outlet for her. She had even started writing a short story.

Everywhere she went she met new people. She met men who were successful and handsome. They would hit on her and ask her out, but she always turned them down. She had already made the mistake of being with one man while in love with another. She refused to do that again.

Emma had always had a fear of being left behind. Her parents had abandoned her. None of her foster parents ever wanted her for longer than six months. Neal had turned his back on her when she got pregnant. She was always waiting for the people in her life to leave. That's what made August such a safe choice. She knew he would stay. And that's what made Killian such a risky choice. He seemed like someone who would leave.

But as Emma roamed around Europe or created a meal in cooking class or placed a vase in a kiln or aced her French test, she began to realize one thing: Killian had stayed.

Emma had given him plenty of opportunities to run, plenty of chances to wash his hands of her for good, but he never gave up on her, not truly. He proved his love for her over and over again. She was just too scared to see it. But she saw it now.

And she knew now that she didn't need a man in her life to give her security or stability. She didn't need a man to fill the holes in her heart left by those before him. She didn't need a man at all. It had taken her a long time to realize it, but she finally understood that it was okay to be alone.

But needing something and wanting something were two different things. Emma knew she didn't need a man to feel complete or worthy. She also knew she had spent far too long denying her desires. She didn't need Killian, but she wanted him. Emma wanted a life, a future with him. The person she was a few months earlier wasn't ready to be in a relationship. She was now.

Emma shook free of her thoughts of Killian and looked down at the script in her hands. She took a deep breath, trying to steady her nerves.

She had only been on one audition in her life and she had been 14 years old at the time. She glanced around the room at the young, beautiful women there who had probably been on hundreds of auditions.

Emma had purposely turned down any offers of auditions over the last two months. She needed to step back and make sure that acting was what she truly wanted to do, not just something she had fallen into that she happened to be good at it. And during those two months she missed it desperately. She knew it was her passion.

Today, she was reading for a primetime pilot. It was a fantasy show. She would be reading for the role of a princess.

"Emma Swan," she heard just as she looked back down at the script.