Just the little things

Afraid of nothing

It's been four weeks, of constant staring and exchanging glances to one another. 2 weeks filled of very few small conversations, smiling, and blushing. I've been feeling weaker and weaker and I'm just ready to tell him.. I like you.

I can't it's too soon! I haven't even had a real conversation with him before. My friends say there's a 95% he may like me. I don't want to get my hopes up if we start talking and I tell him the truth and to have him leave me alone with my feelings hurt because he didn't feel the same way.

I'm not the type to go for it, we'll only if it doesn't involve crushing on a guy, I usually go for it. I don't have the confidence to even talk to him. People say he's shy when it comes to 'love'.

Love? This isn't love, trust me. I can say I do really like this boy though. I do want to try and be with him.

I need to make the first actual move. I love it when he actually looks at me, and I look at him but he doesn't look away so I do.

Making the first move, scares the heck out of me. It just scares me because... I don't know, I just am.

Now that I think about it, I'm scared of nothing. He's a easy going person to talk to, why can't I just freaking talk to him.

Nervous, maybe I'm nervous, not scared.

My breath hitches in me when I even try to make eye contact I wonder how my body will react when I actually have a conversation.

Why me? Why do I have to feel like this? Why can't I read his mind, why can't I just not feel like this.. Why all of sudden? Why now?

I'm such an overthinking mess.

I'm just gonna do it, I'm gonna talk to him.

I just hope this confidence is with me when I see him tomorrow, I can do this.