Love, I'm Done (ON HOLD)

Chapter 1

Chapter 1:

There I was on the floor crying.

It was happening again. I didn't know why no one could ever love me, but I realized this time, that I was done.

Done with love.

Why was it that I always fell for the guys who were always jerks?

Just leave me, after I told them practically everything. After I trusted them and they promised they wouldn't be like the rest.

My razors were calling for me, should I? It has only been a week since I last cut.

No one else cared, so why would I?

Maybe.. if I just killed myself once and for all, all the voices and everything would go away. Leave me alone. I could be free.

My parents, they don't even know that Chad broke up with me. Not that they would care though, they hated him from the moment they met him.

'He changed me' they say.. I don't know, maybe he did?

They don't understand though.. He was my first..

By first, I mean absolutely everything.

My first real boyfriend, first kiss, first touch, first person I had sex with, and the only.

Maybe that's why I had 'changed'. I fell in love the second time.

The first time was just a crush that I thought was love. He didn't give me the time of day. I thought Chad was different, but I guess not.

I've been moping around and of course, my parents don't notice nor do they care.

My mother is too caught up in work and my father is just 'too busy.'

My siblings hardly know i live with them.

My friend, Claire, is too caught up in Rick, her boyfriend. She called and talked for a while, but had to go cause she was sneaking out to go have sex with Rick. She does that practically everyday. How do her parents not know?

School starts tomorrow and I am absolutely dreading it. Seeing Chad and couples, happy couples might I add. I don't even know what I'll wear yet.

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I just took my shower and took my sleeping medication so I can actually sleep. My mother, I hate her. She always yells at me to clean at night. She's so stupid.

Actually both my parents are stupid. They just sit around doing nothing. They sit at their desks and buy a ton of new expensive shit that we most defiantly don't need, not do we have the money for.

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I sub consciously wake up in the morning, I look at my clock. It says 7:12.

'Shit' I mutter. Im going to be late. I yell sarcastically 'Gee thanks for waking me up!'

The bus comes in 10 minutes. I don't even have my outfit picked out. I find my black skinny jeans and my purple high top converse. I look for my Falling In Reverse black tee and I put it on. I brush my teeth real quick and quickly put on a smidgen of eyeliner and a little mascara. I run out the door and hope to catch the bus, not bothering to grab a snack or breakfast.

I get outside and it is freezing, I wish I would've grabbed a hoodie. The bus is just pulling up and I get up the steps and look for Jace. I see him, I go to his seat an sit down. He takes out his ear buds and says 'Hey Ember' in his sweet sexy voice.

I blush a little and kiss his cheek. Jace and I have been friends since in the womb. Inseparable. And yes,I happen to have had a crush on him for quite a few years, I can't tell him that though. Not yet.

I tell him about Chad breaking up with me and I can tell he is upset. His knuckles are pure white from making a fist. He never liked Chad, especially when he heard that we had had sex, he was angry.

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A/N: Please comment and vote and TELL me what i'm doing wrong.! this is my first! so please, thanks loves xx