Blessed By Reedus | Prequel to Claimed By Reedus

|Chapter Forty Four|

Once I'm set, I try my best to ignore the pain but I guess someone will notice that everything is alright very soon! As I try to think about something else, both Kurt and Ryan head towards me. "Hey Gem, I just wanted to talk to you about yours and Ryan's characters relationship" I just nod and smile and let Kurt begin to explain but whilst that's happening. I catch Ryan staring at me in the corner of my eye, I look up at him before he mouths the words, "You okay? You look like you're in pain?" I give him a small smile but I don't say anything. I pretend that I'm still listening to Kurt but I do end up telling Ryan everything. 

Once I'm fine with everything that was just said, even though I'm not sure if I was listening to all of it. "Ryan please don't tell anyone, I know I may not show it as much because of my thin figure but I'm pregnant well, I don't think I am anymore" I say and then my expression saddens before I begin to my lip nervously. "Wait, what do you mean you don't think you are anymore? Is everything okay?" Aww bless him, he's trying to digest this all at once and I'm about to say something which by now. I think is the baby, "The pain is extremely bad. I think I've lost the baby" the ending comes up in almost a whisper.

Ryan's face drops before I'm escorted back to the car. "I'm taking you to the hospital. Does Norman know?" No he doesn't know and I'm dreading to tell him! I only like told him yesterday and then now I'm telling him that I've lost it all!  "No he doesn't know yet. He had to head back this morning and I'm fucking dreading it you know?" once I say it, it beings to get overwhelming and I literally want to break out into tears! "You okay? I'll try and get there quickly" God I do love having Ryan around because he's such a cutie and is always looking out for me. I don't managed to say anything though only a nod before looking out the window and biting the inside of my cheek. 

To be honest, I'm not alright but something you just have to stay strong in order make it through to tell people but I doubt that. I'm a big cry baby and cry every time something fucks up. As I stare out the car window, I try to think on what Norman is going to react when I tell him that I've no lost our baby. Wow such a good friend that Myla doesn't know about this, ugh she's going to be pissed that I didn't tell her! I look over to Ryan and for some reason as much I appreciate him doing all this. But I want my brother here, I'm trying so much to stay strong but I only seem to hold it all together (sometimes) around my brother. Carlos is literally  my strength and without him I can't take this alone!

(Few minutes Later)

"You alright? We're here now but I will stay with you all the way. I'm not going anywhere" Ryan gives me a small reassuring smile before helping me out the car. "To be honest, I'm in a lot of fucking pain but I'll survive. You know you do not need to stay here with me? I can call someone else to stay" I reply back with a weak smile but that doesn't stop Ryan from kissing me on forehead and staying with me. "You and the baby are going to be fine. I will make sure of it" No we're not. It makes me feel like I'm the reason my baby died, I killed the little human being inside of me. I just smile before handing my phone to him and asking him to call my brother because I think he should still be here. 

After that I'm torn away from Ryan and escorted into a room and told to wait. Wait as always! My baby is slipping away over here and I'm told to wait.  God I so hate hospitals as they always make you wait, probably even when you are dying on a hospital bed. As I wait to be seen, I begin to think through everything. Maybe all the shit with Norman in a coma and Jason holding me hostage, caused all that stress that now that may have been the reason why. But then again anything can happen when you're pregnant. I'm not sure if Ryan was allowed to come with me but he came into the same waiting room as me to inform me that my loving Carlos will be here shortly. I just give him a smile and give him a tight hug before I called. "The baby will be fine" was the last thing I heard from him.