Blessed By Reedus | Prequel to Claimed By Reedus

|Chapter Forty Five|

"What's wrong?" Norman asks me, he doesn't move towards me or take me in his arms. His arms are crossed and he wasn't anywhere near me. I need him more than ever right now because coping with this miscarriage is killing me emotionally. I look into Norman's baby blue eyes before looking away and biting my lip nervously, "I lost our baby" silence fills the room and fast. Nothing but looks are exchanged. I can tell that Norman is taking this just as hard as I am because he was so happy to become a father and now I've just pulled it all away. 

"You sure? The doctor didn't make a mistake?" His voice is on the verge of breaking but bless him. He is trying so hard to hold this all in just like I am but I just want to wrap my arms around him and never let him go. I slowly nod without looking at him, unfortunately I'm telling the truth and I wish it didn't happen.  "Why would you do that?" Norman's question takes me by shock, why is he asking that? "Why would you do that?" he repeats the question again before slightly forward with his hands on his face. 

"I'm sorry.." Is all I managed to get out of my mouth before I break down into tears for the 4th time. "You only told me like 2 days ago that you're carrying my child. Now you're saying that you have lost the baby" Norman's voice has a tone of hurt in it and I can't blame him. It's neither of our faults that Norman was in a coma at the time when I first became pregnant. "I know, I can understand why you're pissed off with me but I need you Norman!" Through tears, I decide that I have to fight back because I can't take this anymore. 

"Pissed? I'm far from pissed Gemma. I'm starting to think you lied about the whole thing just to shut Jason up, unless it wasn't even mine. Maybe Charlie's?" I'm heartbroken as much as him but my blood has began to boil. Why would he even say that? "Fuck you Norman! You are only person I wouldn't lie to and I sure as hell wouldn't fucking go behind your back and fuck Charlie!" I snap which causes him to turn around and just stare at me. "Oh now you're pissed at me? Unless it was Jason's child?" We are only a few centimetres apart from each other and I really want to slap him. Yeah emotions have hit sky high right now!

"Maybe because the father of our dead child is accusing me of falling pregnant with another man's child! Oh fucking yeah, like I would have his child!" I snap back and this time we are inches from each other. "Don't believe me then fine don't. Thanks for supporting me through this miscarriage Reedus!" I say back before slapping him across the face and stomping upstairs.  My heart feels completely shattered right now, I can't even begin to express how I feel. Yeah I can understand where he is coming from  because I would hate if it was me in his position. 

Few minutes being upstairs, I hear the front door slam shut and then I'm left all alone again in the house. I curl up in almost a ball on my bed before the tears begin to fall, I hate myself so much right now! Did I do the right thing telling him? Or was something already bothering him before I told him?  When these things begin to flood my head, making me all sorts of thoughts and questions. I sit up slowly on my bed before wiping away my tears, I get up off the bed and start to head down the stairs to grab my phone. 

When I press the home button on my phone, there was one message from Norman. I didn't think I would ever receive the message I was about to read..

"I don't even know where to start with this. You're a beautiful, strong woman that I've loved for many years and I couldn't possibly think of being without you. What happened earlier, I think it's hinting that maybe me and you aren't meant to be. Maybe we need to take a break from this, then maybe we can see where it goes. I'm sorry but..we're over!"

After reading this, I was frozen still. Because of the amount of shock I was in I didn't even realise I had dropped the phone on the floor. Looks like there is no more me and Norman, all that time we spent together is now nothing. Same with those gifts that were brought along the way, I don't think I could just throw them away just like that, I look down to my hands where the ring Norman got me is on my finger. It doesn't take me long before I end up breaking down into tears and into a dark moment..