Stuck In The Mind

Ignorance

Please listen while reading.

Why do you act like I'm the bad guy?

Like I'm the one who has the worst fate?

Why do you hate me so?

What do you have against me?

Do I get a say in this?

Nobody's perfect,

Yet you think you have a right to judge me

I know you don't like me,

I've known since freshman year,

when you'd thought,

I'd be the William Frankenstein to your Creature,

I'm just the middle man to you,

I told Victor about what you have against him,

He said

I shouldn't be involved,

Yet you drag me in,

Like that's my place in the world,

Just a middle man,

That's what started my hatred for you,

over the years,

You let it grow and boil over

Junior Year,

I wished you were dead

Because you really got on my nerves

switching around lunch tables,

ever since the "freshman incident"

avoiding you like the plaque

Yet when I feel at home,

you are banging on the door

schmoozing my friends,

Without them seeing you for who you are,

And Ignoring me

Whenever I talked,

You turned your head,

Acted Like I was mute,

Well news flash,

I'm not mute.

My friends chose your lie, not me

Then everything evil in this world shattered,

Like glass.

I had a meltdown

the one day out of the whole year,

You decided to be nice

You pitied me

I don't want it

I want to scream,

you can't hear me

Don't you get it?

every time I call out,

A fictional character's name,

When you're around,

is because I'm not okay

And I need an Emma Swan,

For this battle,

Over Friends,

Because I know,

I'm losing

I'm not okay with that

I must retract my claws,

To keep my friends happy,

Well I tried that,

it got me nowhere.

You once indirectly call me weak,

At least, that's what I thought,

With you mentioning in an email,

That my friends solve ALL my problems

WHEN THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW MOST OF THEM

Yet you still shove yourself,

Into my life

No!

I want you gone

Why won't you just leave me alone?

There's the door,

Go!

with this war,

I can't escape

I'm stuck in a constant,

loop-de-loop,

that never ends,

I want out,

I want off this merry-go-round!

Is that so hard to understand?

I'm done fighting

I'll

wave the white flag,

and walk out the door,

myself'

that would just give you satisfaction.

You keep pushing on,

making me believe that I am,

the villain,

Because villains always lose, right?

I give up.

What are you waiting for?

An apology?

What for?

You already have my friends

I am the only one,

brave enough,

to surrender

Why couldn't you?