Adopted by.........Ed Sheeran?!?!

Chapter 12-Guilt

Ed's P.O.V

        I walk silently up the stairs, careful to not wake up Alice.  I walk up to her door and slowly open it to where I could peek inside. I smile at her sleeping figure. Her covers snuggled up around her body making her seem so tiny with Shadow sleeping at the foot of the bed.  I smiled, she looks so peaceful, that seems to be the only time she seems truly peaceful since she got rescued from that awful place. I shudder from the thought.

       I'm overjoyed that she is finally home. It has been about two weeks since she has woken up, and they finally let her come home about a week ago thankfully. I really don't like hospitals and neither does Alice, I don't think anyone does for that matter besides maybe the people who work there. Anyways,one thing is for sure, it has been hard with Alice not being home with me, like she should have been.

         Ever since I've gotten her back I don't want to let her out of my sight, the thought absolutely terrifies me to death! Always being scared that someone will come up behind me and take my baby girl from me again,and I cant let that happen, not again. I wouldn't be able to handle it, I just cant. 

     Those weeks that she was gone were horrible absolutely  horrible,the restless nights that happened continuously , searching constantly day and night until someone made me go home to rest and start again the next day.  The guilt of not being able to stop the people who took her haunted me every single night, still, even now that she is back home and safe. I hear her cries for help, for me to come and save her. I shouldn't have took her to the park that day, maybe if I didn't she wouldn't have gotten taken from me.

  I cant help but not to think that its my fault Alice got hurt ,because I was not able to stop the kidnappers from taking her, I should have fought harder. I just wish I could go back to the day we went to the park and not have gone at all. But I cant, whats done is done. Everything happens for a reason.  All of the events that has happened  has made me stronger as well. Even though I hate to admit it. It made Alice a stronger person that she might not have fully realized if it didn't happen along with not being able to see.

    Her being blind has made her see the world a whole new way that I never would have saw until Alice came into my life. I'm glad she came to the meet and greet that day, otherwise I would not have known Alice and I wouldn't have a daughter, and I would see the world the same way I used to. People may pity her but she doesn't need it. She is a strong girl that has gone through so much for only being 10 almost 11 years old. She doesn't see being blind as a disadvantage she sees is as something that makes her more unique than everyone else around her. Which is really inspiring to me, Liam,Harry, Niall, Louis, and Alex, she has taught us so much without even saying anything! She is one incredible little girl who I believe could change the world.  

     But at the same time I cant stop thinking about all the what if's. You know? I mean what if I didn't take her to the park that day? What if I could have done something more to be able to stop them? What if we didn't find them in time to save them? What if Alice had not gotten in the car  accident with her family and best friend, that Caused her to be blind? I mean the reality of it is, is that  if none of that happened then I would not have the most amazing daughter in the world,and that just blows my mind.

    And All of this has made me realize that you cant take things for granted, people often take things and other people for granted. And we cant do that. People are way to important to take for granted, and because you never know when they could be taken from you. I learned that the hard way, having her taken away from me made me realize just how important family and friends are. 

   Leaning off the door way I walk through the door way and sat on the edge of her bed. Moving strands of hair out of her face. I smiled and kissed her forehead "I love you Alice sweet dreams." I whispered. Then  I walked out of the door, closing it gently behind me so I didn't disturb her from her peaceful sleep.  I make my way back down the stairs.

     Now back to the present time,I grab her present from the closet in the hallway to wrap for her birthday tomorrow. I got her  the new Little Mix album "Get Weird", and the "Sounds Good Feels Good" album by 5 Seconds of Summer, that she has been wanting. I have a couple of surprises for her tomorrow to go along  with these gifts. She is going to love what it is! I cant wait to see her reaction tomorrow!

   I want to make this the best birthday she has ever had. I don't know what her past birthdays have been like but I want to make sure that she will never forget this one. After all she deserves it after all she has been through this past year. I continue to make phone calls to make sure that everything  is going to go the way I have planned it to be. Along with the phone calls I made sure to invite people to the party. 

  "Okay thank you  I will see you tomorrow!" I just got off the phone with the last person I had to call for the party tomorrow. I smiled, everything is going as planned! Tomorrow is going to be awesome I can feel it. I check my to-do list one last time to make sure I had everything checked off of the list

*cake .....check

*Games....check

*Invite people ....did that

*wrap present.....finished doing that.

    I sighed in relief everything is done off the list. I look at the clock it read 12:30 pm. i did a double take I was on the phone longer than I thought. I need to get some sleep so I can be fully awake for the party tomorrow. I walk back up the stairs checked on Alice one last time before getting in bed and trying to get some sleep.