YoonMin || Save Me [Completed]

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I've always wanted to get rid of these monsters living inside me, in my head, in my mind. They're waiting for a perfect timing.

Waiting for me to give in until they finally get the chance to swallow the whole me, cut off the remaining hope inside me, replace the real me and supersede this faint light with pitch-black darkness.

"Yoongi hyung..."

They want to win over me and it seems like I can't fight anymore. I just feel like taking a break from everything.

"Yoongi hyung, please."

I suddenly felt a warm, tepid arms wrapped itself around my neck, as if it's embracing me with comfort.

"Everything's gonna be alright, okay? I'm here..."

His voice.

"I'm here..." He repeated with a low, soft sob.

Just then I realized I'm holding a knife, making me lose a grip on it as I snap back to my senses.

"Jimin." I whispered.

I felt his arms tighten around me as he bury his face to my shoulders.

"Hyung, I'm... scared." He said almost whispering as he try his best to stop himself from crying.

There were a few stains of blood in my hands and on the knife I was holding. I don't feel hurt or anything. I must've had-

I immediately grabbed his shoulders and faced him to me. He winced a bit before looking down to hide the wound on his right cheek. I then noticed his shoulder bleeding just right where I placed my hand. He even hid his bleeding arm behind him.

"I... I did this, right?" I said.

He tried to reach for my hand but I've already took a few steps away from him even before he could reach it.

"Hyung no-"

I rested my back against the wall as I brush my hair in frustration. Flooded with thoughts and extreme feeling of uptightness, I found myself on the floor, weeping.

I don't know what to do anymore. Everything's messed up. I'm not getting better, I'm only getting worse.

"Please don't blame yourself. It wasn't you."

"Didn't I tell you to stay away from me?" I said.

"But-"

"Jimin." I stared at him.

I am my own monster. He has to get rid of me.

"Please. Stay away from me, do everything to avoid me. Leave me alone." I felt my chest tightened upon saying those words to him.

My own words pierced me.

"Hyung... I can't." He replied in a low, shaky voice.

"You want to help, right?" I asked him. He's hesitant whether to nod or not but he did, anyway.

"Then do it..."

"Do it for me, Jimin."

This is the only way I know to protect him. With all these shits inside me, I might hurt him more than what I've done this time.

To hurt him is the last thing I would do.

I want him safe...

And I'll keep him safe even if it means pushing him away from me.