When Life Sends You an Angel

When trust breaks

Me and him became ever greater friends after telling him my story and so close that this stupid could tell just by having a 2 min chat with me if I was sad or tired.....Soulmates you see, our vibes caught each other and we became emotionally attached, not physically or mentally because emotions are all I am made of, I'm a bit too full of emotions, choti baaton par khush hona and choti baaton par dukhi.....But he started ensuring that I never be sad.....

But how can life be all so sweet! I had started noticing by August start that him and Simran are becoming close friends, it did hurt me a little but I did want him to move on and stay happy, by this time I totally depended on him for my emotional needs, he was the one who took me out of that depression of 3 years, of course there was a special place in my heart for him. But then he and Simran came together on 8th August 2015 (Saturday) and it broke every part of me and something which broke me even more was that when once they both had met and Simran asked him if he liked someone, he said no one! It hurt me a lot and I started believing that I was right and he doesn't love me truly! I didn't talk to him an entire week! And in the end of the week, he and Simran broke up, he was of course worried that why I wasn't talking to him and he was very sad at that time but I didn't want this break up to happen, I admit I didn't want the relationship but if he was happy and everyone was happy then I wouldn't mind it I mean after all Simran has emotions too! I never wanted it to happen! But it did. I was neither happy nor sad after it but I felt guilty for Simran a lot!

Days passed by and I could no longer believe he loved me "truly" because he came in a relationship with Simran! It was like he betrayed me, used me! But he never meant anything like that, maybe.........

Soon things started going back to normal between September and October and his b'day came on 6th October! I had planned long back that we'll have a small party and my gift to him will be a hug. I knew he would be super happy after it because I now believed he loved me. The hug was magical, I don't know how he felt but let me tell you how I did! It was the first time I ever hugged a guy and let me tell you it's the most beautiful feeling after love. I didn't love him at that time but that hug changed a lot! It started a fire inside me which couldn't die, I can't really describe it in words but it was magical, first time ever feeling someone's warmth, someone's touch, it was beautiful! I wish I could hug him forever but I didn't love him at that time. Now, something which he doesn't know- I'd been dreaming and thinking about the hug for about a week after it, I was lost in those moments for a long time, maybe it wasn't as special for him as it was for me but yes. I did catch feelings for him after that! I considered him "mine".

P.S. Sorry for the late update readers, was a bit too busy with life!