I did talk to Bhagyesh that day and yes, my stupido was the only one who made me laugh that mournful day....I decided I won't cry but how can I not? All the love I ever gave, the affection, the craziness for him and what I get in turn is this!
So I was celebrating Happy December and decided not to cry.....All of a sudden everyone left me in my life....Bhagyesh and Nikki too......
Me and Bhagyesh had some chats but nothing happened as such because it almost took me two weeks to figure out that I no more loved Nikki....
Then I received a picture from one of my friend which said-
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"This age is never going to come back....so fall in love, if you can't have a new crush everyday....dream....imagine.....be impulsive....go crazy.....flirt....get your heart broken....dance madly....click crazy poses......talk constantly....laugh loudly.....speak abusive words....sing your favourite song.....shout...wander late night....break the rules.....drink as much as you can with your bestie.....take chances.....make your own philosophy.....smile and make others smile.....go for it......feel it....get over it.....live this age.....because things are going to be difficult and difficult tomorrow...and friends will be busy to do all these nonsense things!"
This seriously struck me hard....I decided I'm moving on finally and totally and finding someone new...And of course I knew Bhagyesh would be the first person I would approach if I wanted to be in a relationship....But I didn't really take these thoughts into consideration until I saw Dilwale on 24th December....It isn't a sad love story (This sounds a bit too unrealistic but it isn't really, cuz I'm a typical stuck up girl) but what happens is that two lovers start hating each other and get separated but after 15 years they again meet and life gives them another chance, I being a totally negative person took it that way but it turned out to be the most positive thought. I thought destiny gave them a chance....I don't think I will get another chance...I never have.....And this thought struck me hard and I knew somewhere I loved Bhagyesh but I never accepted that, else why would I ever care about him so much? Why would seeing him with another girl rip me apart? I finally accepted that I love him....This was seriously the most beautiful moment, realising you love someone and they love you back too!
But the task wasn't as easy as that.....
I was afraid at first that he doesn't love me anymore...I knew he wouldn't say a no to me but I feared that I'd be with a wrong person...A person who just "pretends" to love me...So I set my bandars in actions. I told Rutz and Sam to get the truth out of his mouth and yes, he still loved me! That was seriously the best moment of my life. I'd decided I'll confess on 31st night at 12. The plan was set and I was the most over-excited creature on earth that time!
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P.S- It's that time of the year again! It's E-Mag time! I miss you! It is almost everyday that reminds me of the blast we had that E-Mag, the jokes, the masti,FUCKING EVRYTHING! That was the biggest milestone in my life and see...I haven't turned back yet and looked at it again, but now I am beacuse I miss you, trust me those were the best and the most valued moments of my life! It's strange right? Isn't it? How a year can change everything in your life! Iit amazes me everyday that I'm here now.....far far away from what I thought I'd be......
