Steps We Take.❀

Step 10: I love you once again.[LAST CHAPTER]

"Kendall?" I call out to my now boyfriend of two months. 

"Yes, sweetheart? he calls back. "If you're looking for food, then I suggest you come into the kitchen."

    I skip into the kitchen to see a romantic candle light dinner, equip with roses in the center of the table. I smile widely as I wrap my arms around Kendall, kissing his cheek repeatedly. I haven't fully regained all my trust into him yet, I mean, everything takes time. You probably think I'm insane for taking Kendall back, but if you've been through what I have with him, you'd completely understand. He still does not remember the raping, the club, or anything else from that time and we'll leave it like that. I will never lose my love from Kendall, no matter what he says or does to me. 

    Logan and I have been pretty rough though, talking every now and then. We tried to date once he got out of the hospital, but it just didn't feel right. We did last awhile though, but I soon realized I will never love anyone except for Kendall. He hasn't talked, let alone look, at Kendall since everything, and that makes me want to breakdown cry. I had a choice to make; either talk to my best friend, or date my lover. It was definitely a hard decision to make, but I had to go with what my heart was saying, always ignoring my brain.

"Awe, Kendall! You didn't have to do this!" I say hugging him tight.

"I love you babe, don't you ever forget that. You're mine, mine forever," he replies grabbing my hand, bending down on one knee. He grabs a black box out from his inside pocket, sighing deeply before he speaks. Crying already, I slap my shaking hand over my mouth.

"Babe, from the first moment I saw you, I knew I had to have you or I'd die. We were friends and don't get me wrong, that was awesome. But when I finally heard those words I've been wanting to hear all my life, oh God, I can't even explain it. My heart exploded into confetti, bursting into the air spreading joy wherever we went together. I would do anything to please you and hopefully you know that. I can imagine growing old with you and die with you right next to me, but I'd much rather live it. Life offers many challenges. I know I can meet them if you're willing to face them with me. You're not only my best friend, but you are my other half, my heart, and my soul. I've talked way to much already, but what I'm trying to say is: Will you marry me?"

"Kendall, I can't think of anything I want to do more than spend the rest of my life with you! Oh my God, I swear," I slap his chest playfully as he slips the diamond ring onto my finger. "You're amazing."

     I attach our lips together in one swift movement, teasing him as I pull back. He groans loudly while I escape his grasp and run outside. I get chills immediately, the fall wind blowing the leaves all over. Kendall friskily chases after me and I run to the dead end of our street. I quickly spot a pile of leaves and decide to have a bit of fun. I burry myself in them as Kendall turns around the corner clueless. I smirk and get ready. He wonders over to the leaves, looking at the rocks next to them, and then inspecting peoples' houses.

"BAAAAHH," I shout to him, the leaves sticking on me. 

He jumps about ten feet back. You could easily tell he was trembling under his wind breaker. His green eyes filled up with tears and for the first time in a while, tears were coming from his eyes. 

"Oh.My.God, Kendall!" I scream running by his side. He hides his face under the burgundy beanie he was wearing, but I soon notice he was laughing really hard. "You idiot!" I hit him lightly on the arm. "You had me worried!"

All he does is continue laughter, but this time harder. "Oh.My.God. Kendall!" he mocks me in a high pitched voice followed by more chuckling.

"Hahaha real funny. I don't even talk like that."

      He grabs me by my the waist and boosts me up onto his big shoulders. I giggle and yell for him to put me down, I hate being picked up,especially by him. But I do have to admit, this was pretty fun. He walks back to our house, putting me down onto the couch softly. He falls on top of me, crushing my fragile body. 

"Ugh," he moans. "I'm so bored."

"Um, hello? That's what you've got me for, dummy."

"Well, we could always-"

"No! No, no, no, no ,nooo."

"You didn't even know what I was going to say."

I send him a pathetic glare. I think we both knew exactly what he meant. He pins me down, demanding me to please him. I giggle, tickling his sides but soon failing. Unfortnunetly, I gave him the idea to tickle me so now I was being tickled. I finally agree, jumping up from the couch.

"Okay so you wanna take this upstairs or-" he starts as I shake my head. His face drops like an elevator shaft. "You lied to me!"

"Kendall, I-I can't."

"You don't want all this?" he says shaking his skinny body, twerking me multiple times. I move away from him fast, annoyed.

"It's-it's not that baby, trust me," I cup his face into my hand. "Kendall, I'm-"

"Wazz going on everybody?!" Carlos yells, throwing the door open to our house. Ohh, he did say he was going to come over, dammit.

"What's goin' on, buddy?" Kendall asks, doing some weird handshake with Carlos and bringing him into some manly hug.

We end up socializing forever, Carlos making sure to point out everything that happened in his day. Kendall does the same, but taking twice his time because of our new engagement. Carlos' face lights up as he stares at me. He sends me a flirty look as I burst out laughing.

"You told him!?" Carlos says excitedly. He lifts his hand up for a high five.

"Told me what?" Kendall asks questionably, but cluelessly.

"That she's preg-"

"That I'm precious! I am so precious and you should never let me go! Thank you so much, Carlos, for your imput!" I reply sending him a death glare. His face instantly turns away from mine, scared.

Kendall looks from me to Carlos, then Carlos to me about four times in a row. I knew Carlos blew it instantly, but it was an accident. He did send an apologetic look to me and I nodded back.

"Preg? Preg?" Kendall ponders out loud. 

I bite my lip nervously, then moving to my finger nails. The awkward silence was.. well.. awkward. Carlos kept shifting in his chair and not making eye contact with anyone. I could sense that he felt bad which makes me feel bad.  Carlos is such a sweetheart with obvious secret telling problems.

"Preg? The only thing it could be is," he says taking a moment to put the clues together. "You're pregnant?"

"I'm pregnant," I annouce. 

"You're pregnant!" Kendall yells ecstatically. Way better than I expected.

"I'm pregnant!" Carlos yells as we both give him strange looks. "I-I wanted to do it, too.."

Kendall throws himself at me, digging his face into my shoulder. I pat his back comfortably, ruffling his hair. I felt wetness on my thin shirt, looking down where I see tear stains. Was Kendall actually crying? Over this? Carlos notices and slips out of the doorway slyly, making no noise at all. 

"Whoa, whoa, baby. Why're you crying? Please don't cry, I should be crying," I tell him, fully crying along with him.

"Why're you crying? You can't cry because I'm crying and that'll just make me cry more than you now that you're crying!" Kendall says, taking my face in his hands and wiping my tears away.

"What?" I ask as we both laugh at each other. 

"I can't believe this. You're pregnant!" he shouts practically to the world. "Wait, wait- we haven't done anything yet, so how is this even-"

"Kendall, this isn't yours. It's," I sob, my face over flowing with tears. "It's Logan's!"

He doesn't say a thing. He just stars at me with a blank expression.[See Multimedia.]

"I'm so sorry, Kendall," I whisper, though I can barely get it out with the huge lump buldging in my throat.