One Sided Love

OSL-XVI

Bea's POV

"No, Bea. I cannot be your girlfriend. I'm sorry." - she said and left me.

She left me here dumbfounded. Nakakunot lang ang noo ko and look around, everyone's shocked. We didn't see that one coming. We were expecting for another answer.

She ran away, she's crying. I don't know why.

Yung mga mata ng teammates ko eh nagsasalitan sa amin ni Jho, Jho who's running and me who is kneeling. And some decided to ran after Jho and some left here.

I am still in state of shock. Pwede nang theme song ko ngayon ang kanta ng The Script na The Man who can't be Moved.

I stood up. Naglakad na lang ako palayo.

"Oy Bea, okay ka lang?"

"Bea, san ka pupunta?"

Naglakad-lakad lang ako at di ko na pinansin yung mga teammates ko, they were saying something, hindi ko na naiintindihan kasi sarado ang utak ko ngayon. I remembered I brought my car. Someone was shouting and I guess they were saying I shouldn't drive.

"I'm fine. I won't do anything stupid. I'll drive safely." -sabi ko nung naramdaman kong merong tao sa likod ko.

Nagdrive lang ako nang nag-drive don't where I'm going. I ended up at the oval. I realized kanina pa ko paikot-ikot ng Ateneo. Pinark ko muna yung kotse ko.

I ran around the noval. Tumakbo lang ako ng tumakbo. Don't know when I'm going to stop. Dumidilim yung kalangitan and kumukulog na rin I keep on running. And when I'm tired napaluhod na lang ako and naramdaman kong may pumatak. Nakikipighati rin ata ang langit sa akin.

"Waaaaaaaahh!!!! Waaaaaaaahhh!!!!"- sigaw ako nang sigaw sa gitna ng oval with all my might.

When the rain finally stop. Naglakad-lakad na lang ako. Hinahayaan ko kung san ako dadalhin ng paa ko. Tired but still functioning.

Hindi ko namalayan nasa tapat na pala ako ng dorm namin. Pumasok na lang ako dire-diretso papuntang rooftop.

Mababaliw na ata ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Maybe, I need to talk to someone.

I get my phone and dialed Ju's number.

"Oh c'mon Ju!!!! Answer your damn phone!!!" -angal ko, when she's not answering my call. Where the fck are you? Why aren't you here? I need you right now. So, I can ask you kung saan ako nagkulang that I end up here. We end up here. I feel like when Jho said no. We're over. Why????

'Maybe Ju needed time' a part of my brain told me. What the?!

'She's a friend of yours tapos malalaman nyang first love mo siya, mag-isip ka nga! She needs space' okay okay. Nababaliw na ako.

Why am I here? Why am I here in this position? Ano bang ginawa ko?

*flashback*

"Sorry ate Ly kung ngayon lang kami. Medyo natraffic kami eh." - sabi ko kay Ate Ly pagkagaling namin ni Ju from Ocean Park, may dinner/farewell party raw kasi for seniors. Although we didn't claim the crown yesterday we gave our best naman daw so enough na raw yun para magcelebrate kami.

"It's fine. Upo na kayo, mukhang malayo pa ang binyahe niyo" - pabulong ni Ate Ly tapos kumindat pa. What's with her? Kanina nung si Ju ang kinausap niya after they talked over the phone natahimik na si Ju the rest of the ride, ngayon naman ako.

"Oh Bea... Why aren't you drinking?" -that's Ate Ly and by drinking she means alcoholic drinks, well, it's kinda part of celebration but I don't want to drink, someone has to drive them back to the dorm.