I remembered everything now. I was so mad at myself. I thought I wanted to die but now that I did I don't want to. I'm glad I got the idea of killing myself out of my head.
"Happy birthday!" I yelled walking into Kelsie's room.
"Yay!" she yelled.
"Happy birthday!" I yelled walking into Jake's room. We all walked downstairs. I knew that Jessie planned a surprise party for them. I'm glad I didn't die before they're 2nd birthday.
What Kelsie looks like now:
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What Jake looks like now:
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"Happy birthday!" Jessie yelled.
She had a big happy birthday sign on the wall. Jessie had balloons and streamers all over. This is like the best 2 year old birthday party I have ever seen.
"Mommy!" they both yelled and ran over to Jessie and gave her a hug. These are the times I wish I was like Jessie. I mean when I got the idea in my head that I had nothing to live for, I actually would.
I didn't think my mom would even notice I was gone. But now even though I don't have kids I have Kelsie and Jake to live for. I thought that James was the only person that really loved me. Jessie when she started to talk about me behind my back, I thought she hated me.
I'm 18 years old. I have been married, I have a niece and nephew, and I've died. I know that last part doesn't make sense but I did die in the hospital after I tried to kill myself. The only thing about getting married is that my husband died from cancer.
That word is like the worst word on the face of the planet. It took the person that I loved away from me. I've tried to move on from James but it's going to be hard. But I know I can do it.
I just hope I have what Jessie has, she has her twins that mean everything to her. She's a single mom but she is one of the best single mom's I've seen. I love her and I love Kelsie and Jake too. I hope I have a family as amazing as Jessie does.
Maybe I would like to have a husband that would help me. But if Jessie can do it on her own I can too. I just hope I don't have too.
My life has gotten better since I died and came back to life. My mom is always there for me, we do like mother daughter things all the time.
