My Confession (Ross Lynch Fan Fiction)

Chapter 9

*Caitlin's POV*

"We're going to visit your parents"

My stomach dropped. Visit my parents. I haven't been to their grave since the day of their funeral. Not that I never wanted to visit them, I just couldn't! I looked up at Ross and he gave me a small encouraging smile. All my emotions started to build up inside me, I felt tears well up in my eyes. I stepped back from Ross shaking my head. "No. I can't"
"Yes you can! If you don't do this now, you never will" Ross put his hands on my shoulders. "I can't" I choked out. Tears spilled down my cheeks and Ross instantly wiped them away with his thumbs. "Be brave" He said. Just then the taxi pulled up beside us and Ross leaned over and opened the door. I stood there for a moment. Just thinking about the few memorise that I had with my parents and how much I missed them. How much I missed out on. Not having a mother and father around to teach me what is right and wrong, going on a family vacation, having younger brothers and sisters, just having someone there to love you. And I knew I had to go there and tell them I love them.

I climbed into the taxi and Ross joined me. I looked over at him, he was watching all the scenery out the window. Why was he doing all this for me? I couldn't help but watch him. The way he was so relaxed all the time. Over the past few days I've hardly done any work. I've been spending so much time with the band and having fun I've forgotten I'm with them to work. I think this is the first time in a long time I've been happy. Like really happy with everything. But what am I going to do when the tours over? The band will be going back home and promoting their new album. And I won't have a job. This was only temporary while the band were on tour. The thought of possibly never seeing these people again and spending time with them everyday won't feel right.

"Are you okay?"
I snapped out of my thoughts and saw Ross staring at me. "Um, yeah" I replied. He sighed and looked back out the window. Guilt instantly washed over me. "Thank you for doing this" I whispered. He turned around so he was facing me and smiled, he had such an amazing smile. "Your welcome" He replied.

We sat in silence for the rest of the car journey. We pulled up to the churchyard a few miles from away from the hotel. I climbed out and saw all the headstones in front if me. I felt Ross place his hand on the small of my back. "Let's go". We started walking past all the headstones until I remembered that Ross has no idea where my parents were buried. "Um...." Ross scratched the back of his neck and looked around. I giggled slightly and pointed in the opposite direction. "Why didn't you I tell me we were going the wrong way?" He said. "I thought it was cute that you thought you knew where you were going" I laughed. Ross blushed slightly. We walked back the way we came and I lead the way to my parents grave. As we walked up to it Ross grabbed my hand and intwined my fingers with his.
We finally made it in front of the headstone and I felt tears falls down my cheeks. "You did it" Ross whispered in my ear. I nodded slightly not taking my eyes of their names engraved into the stone. All the memorise came flooding back of that day.

"I remember it happening" I blurted out. Ross didn't say anything he just looked at me. "I was only a kid but I still remember everything that happened" I carried on. "Were you hurt?" Ross asked. I shook my head "No, just cuts and bruises. But Mom and Dad were just...gone" I started to cry again once I said the last bit. Ross instantly pulled me into his chest and wrapped his arms around me. "Sorry" I sobbed into his chest. "Shhh, it's okay" He rubbed my back and leaned his chin on the top of my head. We stood there in silence until I stopped crying.

"You okay now?" Ross asked as we got back into the taxi. I nodded and leaned my head against the window. I did it. I was proud of myself. And I hoped my parents would of been too.

"Thank you...for everything" I say and turn to Ross. He gave me a warm smile "Don't worry about it"
"No, I mean it. Thank you for all of this. I guess I...I finally feel wanted by people" I replied and looked down and my hands. "I'm glad you feel like that now" Ross said. I looked up and smiled a bit. "I like it when your not working all the time" Ross said simply. I was a bit taken back from his comment."Me too" I smiled. We pulled up outside the hotel. "Come on everyone will be waking up now" Ross said walking towards the elevators. "Yeah you guys need to be ready soon, you have an interview" Ross raised his eyebrow and had a confused look on his face. "We do?"

I rolled my eyes and laughed. "See this is why I have this job!"
Ross pushed me slightly and laughed. "Better you then me" He said. I gave him a huge smile and we stepped into the elevator and headed back to our rooms.

A/N- This week has been so hectic! arrrgh! It was audition week for the performing arts programme at college so literally I've been rehearsing all this week for singing, acting and dancing! So that's why I haven't uploaded recently! But I should find out the show and cast list next week so I'm so nervous! Ahhh!

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