Dorm Room 12B

Chapter 5: Bloody Internet

Chapter 5: Bloody Internet

Breath In.
Breath out.
Breath In.
Breath out.

I did this a few times till my breathing got back to normal.
Once that was done I decided I needed to process everything that happened on the phone, so I went to the place I can talk without being judged, yell and cry and let all my emotions out, the one place I feel safe, and that one place, is the water. You see when I was younger I loved lakes, I would go to lakes and let out my feelings. Id scream and shout and cry and laugh or sometimes Id go to simply clear my head. Which is what I'm doing now.

I parked my truck and pulled a blanket out and found a nice clearing that's isolated but still beautiful. I send a text to Ava telling her and Ian not to wait up for me and I turned off my phone.

I sat there and just processed.

They want me to go back to England.

I don't think I can, not after what happened. I just am not ready to face everyone there. I left. We left. Me and my Mum couldn't take it anymore, so we left. No goodbyes, no discussion, nothing. I can only imagine how crazy everything was after we left.

Now they want us, no need us to come back.

I'm not ready, my moms not ready, we're not ready.

But they need us right now.

I don't know what to do.

What would he do?

He would tell me to get over my self, to get over the past and go because they need us, our family needs us. He would tell me its been years now and its time to go back. But I don't want to go back. I've made new friends, started at a new school and want to do amazing things here.

"What do I do? " I ask him out loud.

"Should I stay and let them down, or go and not be happy? " I say burying my head in my knees.

I pick up and power on my phone, it starts vibrating like crazy, texts and missed calls from Ava and some un known flood in.  I assume there from Ian and Juli. I go to my contacts and press call on one number.

Two rings go by before an answer.

"Mum? "

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I get to my dorm at 2am, thankfully everyone has gone and Ian is passed out in his bed.
I grab a few things and go take a shower since I haven't showed today.
After showering I put my hair in braids and climb in my bed.
After discussing the call I received to my mom we talked it out, weighed the pros and cons, and came to a conclusion.

We don't want to go back, though we do miss everyone were not moving back, but they do need us, so were going back, not to stay and not for long. Were gonna visit and sort everything out, for a weekend only.

When I hung up with my Mum she said she was gonna make calls and arrange everything then we fly out this weekend. Thank goodness its only Monday, I need to mentally prepare my self even if its for 2 days.

I close my eyes and as I drift to sleep I one thought stays in my mind, I'm dreading for this weekend to come.
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"Wake up" a strange voice says.
"Emily" who ever it is, needs to shut the hell up.
"Get the fuck up Emily! " someone pinches my noes.
I spring up from my bed just barely missing the ceiling.
"Geeze Emily I've been trying to wake you for 5 minutes"
"Huh" I say in a sleepy voice.
"We have class today" Ian says.
Ian?
Why is he in my room?
Then it hits me and all the memories from the past day finally arrive in my head. 
Ava,
Juli,
Dinner,
Ian,
Call,
Lake,
Decision.
"Oh yeah thanks for waking me" I say letting a yawn out. 
"Yeah yeah get dressed were gonna be late"
"Okay" I say seeing that he's already ready.
I jump off my bed and go to my closet and pull out clothes and heading to the bathroom.