The happiest people are the most damaged
Not feeling suicidal...just wishing I were dead
I don't think you know how bad it gets its like I am alone not talking and my mind is just screaming and my vision is blurry and I feel alone and I know why because I are and me. And I don't want anyone to talk to anyone because pain and sorrow is already already radiating from me.
And the pain is eating me up.
You don't know how much I wished I were dead.
I just wish I wasn't born.
I ruin everything there is nothing I don't ruin. I feel sorry for anyone who has ever known me.
I just really really hate my self.
When you say "I hate you" I say "that's okay I hate me too." Because I actually do I wish I was never born.
I only cause pain and sorrow to everyone it would be so much easier and better without me so much better and easier.
I don't know how to say sorry to people it's just that they chose to help me and now they realize it was a mistake and now I don't know how to tell them it's okay if they leave and that I am sorry.
Depression has depression so it go to people some people take it in and realize it's a mistake some don't mind it and don't let it in others take it in don't want it anymore and realize that a they can't live a life with it and so they kill themselves and depressed moves to another person.
Now it has come to me I let it take over me
And now depression is telling me all of its problems and now I have become depression I am not me anymore I am not happy I am just numb emotionless cold hearted I don't feel bad for anyone and don't cry anymore it's like I am empty but I am also useless and I wish I was dead but I don't tell people because I am scared depression might get to them. But what do I do I do nothing I let it eat me alive I let it take over me and I just don't care I just sit back and wish to die or that I would have never been born because a word without me is just so much better because I ruin everything and everyone.
I am sorry to everyone who ever knew me.
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Hey guys thank you so much for reading this again means a lot to me and yeah thank you
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Book of lies and life
PoesíaThis book is full of lies. Lies people always fall for. Lies you shouldn't fall for. And things that these lies will turn into when you become depressed.
