Fix you (Harry Styles)

CHAPTER 84

Chapter 84


4 MONTHS LATER

HARRY'S POV

I've been Kendall Jenner for about 3 months, and she's probably the only Kardashian/Jenner that I can stand. She has a unique beauty, and I love how she's so natural and laid back.

I decided to ask her out because I knew I had no chance with Mercy, hence I needed to move on from her. I mean, I already wasted 4 years being in love, I'm not saying that it was a waste of time, but it certainly is harmful since she hasn't reciprocated the feelings for almost 3 years now. And I also want to stay friends with her without any problems related to me having feelings for her or craving her, because all she thinks about is Zach, and he'll probably force her to cut me off if I try anything with her.

I have mad respect for him, though. I may envy him for having her, but I do respect him.

The guy has known her for so long, and they practically grew up together. They've had feelings for each other ever since they were 16 years old, and now they're both 22, and they didn't give up on each other. I still can't believe that they've been dating for two years, and four months.

And yes, I have been counting how long they've been dating.

As much as it hurts to admit this, but even when Mercy was deeply in love with me, she always had feelings for Zach. I hated to admit it to myself back then, but now that I'm trying to move on, I know that she did like him. That's why she never gave up on him either.

I respect him because he's never given up on her, and I respect him because he was always there for her. He fixed her when I tore her apart, he fixed her when I couldn't. When no one else could.

I love how she grew up into a beautiful young woman. I can see that she's confident, now. I remember how insecure she used to he. But now, it's so clear that she no longer has some self-esteem issues, and I honestly know that it's all thanks to him.

He probably showers her in compliments, and flatters her 24/7.

And I'm grateful for that.

I wished that it was me who did all of that. I always hoped to be the one who saves her from her worst nightmares, her insecurities.

But maybe this is a sign that I may not be the one for her.

I strongly believe that she's the one for me, but I'm not the one for her.

Sometimes, someone may be your soulmate, but that doesn't mean that you're theirs.

It's been 4 months, and I still didn't meet Mercy. We only text each other, and we occasionaly talk on the phone.

But it's finally her graduation day, and Zach's too. And I promised her that I would be there for her, and that Kendall and I would go on a double date with her and Zach. She agreed instantly, and seemed to love the idea.

Not only will the double date clear the air between Zach and I. But the media will let everyone else that the beef between Mercy, Zach and I is no longer there. And that the rumors about Mercy and I being together will finally be proven to be false, so Kendall would stop paranoid about the nature of my relationship with Mercy, and Zach will too.

"Hey babe." Kendall said as she slipped into my car, pecking my lips.

"Hey." I said. I was so anxious, I just wanted to see Mercy.

I knew it wasn't fair for Kendall to be with me while I still have feelings for Mercy, but I have no other choice.

"I missed you." She said, and I held her hand intertwining our fingers.

I didn't say anything back because I didn't want to say something I don't mean. I didn't miss her, I didn't. But I missed Mercy.

I'd rather say nothing than lie to her.


A COUPLE OF HOURS LATER


Zach and Mercy have graduated, and they both looked so happy. But I think I might have noticed a glimpse of worry in Mercy's eyes. I'll make sure to ask her about it privately.

We went to a fancy restaurant, that Kendall picked, for dinner. I didn't object, although I knew Mercy hated fancy restaurants, and she hated going to dinner on dates and going to restaurants during dates because she thinks they're places where people only eat and not spend a long time there to talk.

She was too polite to say anything, though.

"Wow. This place is amazing." She lied.

"I know, right? My family and I love it." Kendall said, with a smile, as we all sat down.

"If I would have known it was this fancy, I would have put on better clothes." She said, smiling awkwardly.

"You're the most beautiful woman here nonetheless." Zach said and he kissed her knuckles softly, making her blush.

And it hurt watching them, so I looked away.

"Well personally, I think Kendall is the most stunning girl here." Mercy said, trying to compliment Kendall after she noticed that she was upset because I didn't flatter her the way Zach flattered his girlfriend.

His girlfriend.

Sounds funny when I call her his girlfriend, and not mine.

"I agree." I smiled.

We all ordered water when the waiter came, and then we picked up our menus to order food.

"Do they not have pizza?" Mercy whispered to all of us, making all of us laugh a bit.

"No, they don't." Kendall chuckled.

"What is all of this? Why are they writing in gibberish? Is this a foreign restaurant?" She whispered once again.

"No, this isn't a foreign restaurant." Kendall smiled.

"This is embarrassing, I don't belong here." She frowned and looked down.

"It's alright baby, I don't understand any of what's written on the menu too." Zach comforted her as he kissed her cheek softly.

"Don't be embarrased, I know how much you hate fancy places and dinner dates. We shouldn't have brought you here. And honestly, I hate these places as much as you do." I confessed, not caring about Kendall's feelings.


"I'm so sorry, I wouldn't have made you come here if I had known , I'm genuinely sorry." Kendall apologized.

"It's okay. I love it, I promise" Mercy assured her.

A few hours later, we were walking out of the restaurant after spending an amazing night with all of them.

We all talked about our issues and made up, and we laughed a lot. We just had a lot of fun in general.

"Hey, do you guys want to go to the after party with us?" Zach suggested.

"I don't know." I said.

"Come on, you guys." Zach insisted.

"Yeah, it'll be so much fun." Mercy added.

"I'll go." Kendall said, looking up at me with puppy eyes.

"Fine." I groaned and they all forced me to go to this party.

When we arrived to the house, it was full of drunk college students, mostly the ones who just graduated and they all celebrated by drinking booze.

I looked at all of them and suddenly I lost my strength. I craved a drink so bad.

"Come on, Nate's about to perfrom." Mercy said, dragging us inside.

"Nate as in Skate?" Kendall asked.

"Yeah." Mercy said, excitedly.

"He's friends with Kylie." Kendall added.

"I know. Most of my friends are friends with her too. But I never met her." Mercy continued.

"What a small world." Zach slurred as he kept drinking and touching Mercy's ass.

I could smell all the alcohol, and it made me go nuts.

I stayed there for about half an hour, watching Kendall dancing around with her sister's friends and watching Mercy grind all over Zach who was drunk as hell.

I would get jealous at how she was all over him, but I was too suffocated with all the smoke and lack of oxygen in the house. And because I wanted a drink so bad.

I refused to surrender to my temptations and got out of the house, to get some fresh air.

I went out to the back of the house, and there was a nice garden that was empty. I was grateful that no one was out there.

I ran my hands through my hair, sighing loudly and then I felt a hand on my shoulder.

I turned around to find Mercy, looking worried.

"Are you okay?" She asked.

"I'm fine." I smiled.

"I can still tell when you're lying as well, Harry." She looked at me. It made my heart flutter.

"It's just that I've been sober for almost 8 months, and being here is making me want to drink." I sighed.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry I wouldn't have brought you here if I-" She freaked ou but I interrupted her.

"It's alright, I don't care where I am as long as I'm near you." I said, looking her in the eyes and back to her lips.

"I'm so sorry." I said, my voice breaking. Then I cupped her cheek with my hand, and she leaned into it, closing her eyes for a brief second.

We stood there in silence, looking at each other's eyes and lips, reluctant to kiss each other.

And as I was about to start leaning in, we heard someone coughing.

"Skate." Mercy said, moving as far away from me as she could.

"Wassup?" He said, looking back and forth between Mercy and I.

"Just talking." I glared at him.

"No shit." He said, sarcastically as he let out a chuckle.

Then I saw Mercy grab Skate's elbow and pull him away from me, and I saw them whispering to each other.

Then they both walked back inside and left me there.


MERCY'S POV



I was having so much fun with Zach and the rest of my friends, until I saw Harry get out of the house.

I noticed he wasn't partying or doing anything, he just stood there uncomfortably. And it was quite strange because he loves this sort of parties.

"I'll be right back." I whispered to my boyfriend who was too hammered to even say anything, then I pushed through the bodies and went to the back of the house.

I saw Harry running his fingers through his hair, looking nervous.

"Are you okay?" I put my hand on his shoulder.

Long story short, I messed up by being bringing him to the party. I didn't know that he stopped drinking.

I mean, I knew he had a huge drinking problem but I never expected him to recover.

And fortunately, he did. But there was so much booze around the house that he was beginning to get tempted to get one sip of liquor.

I messed up even more when I let him cup my cheek and almost kiss me.

I didn't know what the hell was happening. Why was I letting it happen?

I love Zach and I shouldn't even be alone with Harry. Let alone have him telling me he's only here to be with me, and let him touch me and want to kiss me.

I didn't want to kiss him.

Okay, maybe I did. But it was wrong, and it was probably just me missing the memories we had together, but I wasn't missing him.

I mean I did miss him as a friend, but not as a boyfriend.

God, I'm such a mess. I'm so confused and I don't like the way he makes me feel chaotic when he's around.

He's toxic. And so am I.

We're both toxic for each other, and we still make each other revolt inside and drive each other crazy.

I have so many questions right now.

Anyways, Skate interrupted us.

Remind me to thank him later for doing that before Harry and I could make a mistake.

And he just glared at me incredulously.

"We were just talking." I whispered as I pulled him away.

"You can't bullshit me, Mercy." He snapped.

"I don't know what's happening. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me right now and I don't expect you to understand but I promise that nothing happened." I said, with watery eyes.

"I'm not worried about what happened, I know nothing happened. I'm worried about what was about to happen. I'm worried about you, Mercy. Don't let him ruin your life again, please. I won't tell a soul about what I saw, but please promise me you will not go anywhere near him again." He said, his eyes softening.

I stayed silent, as I looked down.

"I'm serious. You have Zach who's a really cool guy and he loves you more than Harry ever have and ever will. You were a mess after the break up, and he made you happier than you've ever been. He fixed what Harry broke, Mercy. What Zach and you have is special, don't let that go because of an impulsive mistake. I care about you, this is why I'm telling you this. I'm trying to look after you. You know I love you as much as I love my brother and sister." He said, and everything he said made sense to me.

I knew Harry was a storm, and he would destroy everything that comes near him.

"You know I do love Zach with all my heart." I looked up at him.

"I know you do, but I don't want Harry to confuse you and cloud your judgement. I don't want him to make you think you have feelings for him, because you don't. He doesn't have feelings for you, either." He said, and I nodded agreeing. Skate kissed my forehead softly.

"What would I do without you?" I sighed in an exaggerated way, making him laugh and then we went back inside, leaving Harry.

"Hey babe." Zach slurred as he stumbled while trying to walk up to me.

"Hey baby" I grinned as he placed a kiss on my cheek.

"I'll see you around." Harry suddenly said as he dragged Kendall out of the house who looked drunk, too.

I ignored him and got Nate to help me take Zach back to our house, where he passed out.