Who are you? (Jensen Ackles FanFic)

Chappie 9!

*Destiny's POV*

His lips on mine felt so... good, it was as if he was my new addiction. But, no, I'm not ready, I can't. I'll ruin him, like I did with Cristian... I'll ruin everything.... "Jensen," I mumbled into his lips, nudging him to stop, no use... "Jensen, stop!" I said sternly. He looked up at me with a worried expression, "Did I do something wrong?" he asked desperately, "No, it's all me, it's ju- Look, it has nothing to do with you!! I promise, it's all me...it's all me..." I looked down, letting the few tears being held in, fall. "What is it? You can tell me anything, please?" I couldn't look him in the eye, the jumper I was wearing at the moment covered it, all the memories, all the pain, the tears. That's why I love my jumpers... they cover me up, emotionally, physically and mentally. So I pulled up my sleeves, showed him why I can't be with him, with anybody.

*Jensen's POV*

She slowly pulled up her jumper's sleeve, and as she did the tears from her eyes poured out... I didn't see, until I looked down... scars, horrific scars, littered everywhere, all over her wrists, she kept her head down, I couldn't help but to gasp, I couldn't help but to run my fingers across the closed wounds, "Why?" was all I could say... she just silently cried, shaking, "C'mere, c'mon, get over her..." I told her and opened my arms for her to come and fill them, she slowly crawled into my arms, making sure to make no eye-contact, I held her close, rocked her, I told her everything is okay... but I wasn't sure of it was or wasn't.

*Destiny's POV*

Why... why? I sobbed into Jensen's arms, "Destiny, love, tell me please! I need to understand, you're too beautiful to be hurt!" he pleaded, I had to calm down, inhale, exhale, in, ex, in, ex... now it's time.. "It wasn't really to long ago," I say still in his arms, inhaling his wonderful, musky, scent. "His name was Cristian, he reminds me of you, sort of." I chuckled lightly, "Mhhm," he hummed signaling for me to continue. "He was a true gentleman, he loved everyone, until I came around," I looked down, in shame, embarrassment "I tortured him, I liked him a lot, but then, I got this feeling, this inevitable feeling, the took you away from reality, took you a place where your dreams came true, where fairy tales existed, what I had know to call love." I stated rather passionatley, "I had no other choice, I couldn't hide it, I couldn't deny it, I told him, those three words that are said too often, than too little and he denied it, he told me it wasn't right, it shouldn't, couldn't happen and never will... I became self conscious, hated everything about myself because, I wasn't enough, and never will be..." I cried.. it hurt, it really did, to know that all of your love meant nothing, it wasn't enough, never will be, it makes you feel... nothing. Absolute nothing and I. Hated. It. "You're enough, you really are, you're enough for me..." he declared, and oh how those words sting. "No, I'm not, I can't fill your needs, I'm worthless, I cannot be what you want me to..." I said slowly.

*Jensen's POV*

"No, I'm not, I can't fill your needs, I'm worthless, I cannot be what you want me to..." She said slowly, as if I needed to soak it in, I kind of did... "Yes, you see I don't want you to change, I don't want you to be anything else but you! I want you, I've wanted you from the moment you bumped into me, with your nerdy glasses and you oversized t-shirt, you're all I want and all I need... Destiny, be with me...?" I said, I was being completely honest, pouring my soul into my lecture... and it was true, she's all I want and all I need, she doesn't need to change, she's perfect the way she is. "Jensen, that was beautiful, haha" she laughed, sniffling and wiping the tears off of her cheeks, "Yes, I'll be with you..." she said smiling, she looks up and in here eyes, they show... hapiness, excitement, and... worry? "Just don't hurt me, please." she says with a small smile, that's why she's worrying? I would never hurt her, intentionally, atleast. "Never, ever... I promise!" "Haha ok, ok!" she grabbed my neck, pulled me to her level, and smashed her lips on mine with such passion, I like Destiny... a lot.