Being a Fake Celebrity

Chapter 10

"Taylor, I'm out!"

"What? Why?"

"Because I want a break. I want to clear my mind and calm down a little bit."

"Please, don't go! I'll miss you!"

Her voice breaks my heart. She begs me not to go but I cannot stay anymore in this group. I need to focus on myself and distance myself from Niall and everything that he means for me.

"It's just a break. It's not forever. Please it's hard enough for me without you begging me to stay."

"Ok. I'm going to be the supportive best friend." She takes a break, breathes in, breathes out and speaks."If this is what you feel you need right now, ok. You know that whatever happens I'll be here for you and you can tell me anything in this world, right?"

"I know, Tay. Thank you so much. I love you!"

"Love you more!"

"That's impossible, but ok. Thanks again!"

"Please take care of you. See ya soon!"

"See you soon!" And I hang up.

I have tears on my cheeks. I heavily breathe. I have a hole inside of me that I cannot fill with anything in this world. My room seems not the same now.

I look around and see my whole life until now. Every important moment is kept in a very loved thing. It is my life in this room but it does not feel like home anymore. My bed remembers me of every night I cried in it, my desk of every heartbroken song that I wrote, my guitar of every struggle that I have been through. How can I be happy when all that I see around me is pain and tears? I need to be away of those things and work on myself. I am going to disappear for a while.

How Demi disappears? Easy. It is a role play and I just deleted her account.

Why? Because she was broken and I was broken.

Even though it is just a role play you cannot put your personal feelings apart and not feel anything. I felt ever insult that she got, every tear that she dropped and also every moment of happiness. I was happy and sad with her and right now a part of my heart is broken too.

We got emotionally involved because we care about our character. They are us and we are them. Now I feel like Demi, my best friend, Alison, calls me Demi sometimes. It is weird but we are them too.

So, Roxy is talking to you right now, until new updates. It is a little strange but you know what?! It is my story.

I checked all the things that drama needed to mess up with my nerves. From stupid people to drama queens or kings. There are drama kings too, but I think he believes he is just a king without the drama part. I think that he is still lying to himself.

Anyway, I did not break up forever with the role play. I have a secret account. I am Kendall for some time and I have to think like her. It is hard to do it, because after all the research that I have done I still feel like Demi and sometimes I am writing like her, with sarcasm and a superior voice. Those are wrong decisions.

What happens? She needs a to have fun and she came just in time to see Cara and Zayn's break up. I was happy and I put a plan on run. I dislike Cara. She took my man in some way and I am going to take hers.

At first it was just for revenge but I realized that Zayn is a sweet guy and he deserves better than what he had. Kendal does not hook up with him but she is by his side now that his sister is in hospital for I do not know what kind of injury. I personally think that she is faking but that stays between us.

Things are going great and with Kendal I can see from afar everything. I hear everything. I do not say too much. I do not want to be noticed in some way and get involved too much.

Do you think that this is the only thing interesting from this period of time? No, it is not.

We talk off role play too. I most talk with Drea. I do not know her in person but we have talked and we became friends. But I do not know if a friend can stab you in the back. I just found out something that I think that broke something in me and changes my world a little.

Drea made another account a couple of weeks ago. The name of that account is Don. Don, Zayn's sister, that Don. What I am feeling right now? Anger, wrath, like I want to pouch her, shocked, calm and disappointment.

It will take me some time to digest the news but things are never going to be the same. I know a lot of things. I do not want revenge. Karma will do that for me. I am not wasting my time on things that will be solved later by somebody else.

I took this time to get back on track and that I am going to do. I am making peace with myself and I learn how to not pay attention to useless things. I am focusing on myself and when I am done my peace will not be stolen by anyone.

A month has passed since the news. I feel confident and safe in my own skin. It is like a new door has opened and the sun rise again. Sure that my life got better in this time, I see the world with new eyes. I smile more often and make sometimes good jokes. I still have the heart broken, I still think at Niall every day, but I do not cry anymore, I do not get mad of myself.

Demi is powerful and she is going to break it when she comes back. I do not know what is going to happen with her or what she is going to do, but she has a bright future in front of her and she is going to kill it. I am the one behind of her, so of course she is going to be awesome.

As I make the new account I talk with Alison. She is more than happy to have me back in this world with her. I hear her on the phone and she sounds happy for more than just me going back. That is a mystery that I am going to solve as soon as I hear the story of everything that happened while I was gone.