Being a Fake Celebrity

Chapter 11

"Hay, Tay. I'm back!"

"OMG. Where are you?"

"I just come back home. I thought that I should call you."

"You did well. I'm so happy that you're back. How was? Where did you go?"

"I was a week in Hawaii and three in Cuba. It was amazing and my skin looks flawless. I am so excited!!!"

"I hear. You sound different."

"How different?"

"Happier, I don't know. Excited and in heaven a little bit, I think."

"I am. I made peace with myself. I had an amazing time even though I was by myself there."

"And what you feel about Niall now?"

"Nothing. He is a part of my past now. I don't think at him so much anymore and when I do I swear I smile a little bit."

"Why?"

"Because he gave me, in his way, a cold shower and now, that I am back, I only see him far away from me. And I also realized that I don't need a man to be happy, I only need myself."

"Wow. You're changed."

"I am. But how are you?"

"Happy. I have a new crush and I think that he has a crush on me too."

"Who? Louis?"

"OMG. You knew about him?"

"Yep. He told me."

"Anyway, it's not him. I had a very sweet moment with him but I could not be 100% in that start of the relationship because I was thinking all the time at Josh. And when Josh came back to me I couldn't say no to him then. So I broke up with him."

"Oh...I didn't know. But Josh? I thought that you're done for good with him."

"I am now. But that night he came at my door and my heart melt when I saw him almost crying. We spend the night together talking and stuff..."

"But?"

"But he proved me that he will always choose Lottie over me and I found out that at that night Lottie broke up with him and he came at me. I swear that I almost hate him right now. Who does he think I am? He's back up?"

"So you are over him now?"

"YES. I missed talking to you so much."

"Me too. But tell me, who's the lucky boy?"

"Calum. I think that you met him. He is cute and funny and serious at the same time. But I don't wanna rush anything."

"The boy that looks like a Chinese?"

"He's Australian, but yes, that boy."

"He is cute. Go for it. You have my blessing."

"You're sure? I can't believe that you're telling me that."

"Why are you so surprised? I met the guy and he seems like a good guy. If you like him and he likes you, why not?!"

"I am surprised because Josh and Harry... you don't like any of them."

"Only because they hurt you. And let's not put Harry and Josh in the same group. Harry is Harry, we all know him and we all know the reason of your break up. But Josh does not deserve anything. After all that he's done to you I can't even talk normal to him. He chose to be with a girl not a woman. And you do not treat a woman like a second plate."

"You're right. And I think that I will always have feelings for Harry. We are now very good friends and he respects me, in his way, but I know that he does."

"Ok. So tell me more about Calum."

"So, I manage to get them on tour with me and we spend a lot of time together. I love the boys and their music."

"They are good. I love them too. And I love to see you that happy."

"Thanks."

"Oh. And I got you something from Cuba."

"What? What?"

"You know that swim suits that you saw a month ago on the Internet and they didn't had your size?"

"Yes. They were so sexy."

"I got you three."

"What? You're crazy!"

"No, I'm not. I couldn't decide between red, turquoise and gold."

"Now I understand you. Thank you so much!!!"

"Anything for your happiness."

"You're so cute. I don't know what I would do without you?!"

"Let's not talk about that."

"Ok. You have pictures from Cuba? How is there?"

"Spectacular. They are fun and if you're careful you can have a great time there."

"I heard about some of those things."

"And you must know Spanish. There are a very few people there who speak English."

"I know Spanish."

"Aha....sure you do."

"Don't laugh at me. I know words and I can learn some more."

"You're awful at Spanish."

"I know. You just broke one of my dreams."

"I'll come with you, if you want."

"That's sweet. Of course I want."

"I don't wanna ruin your dreams. I know Spanish better than you."

"Much better!"

The conversation was on the whole night. We talked and laugh and cry sometimes. We remembered of hard and beautiful times. I finally heard her happy and pleased with herself. I did not hear drama and I did not hear sadness in her voice. We made it look simple but for us it was hard to handle everything.

I missed her. I missed feeling that I have a connection with someone. This whole time I prayed for her. I know it may not be too much, but I hope that it is something. And I saw that it was something.

My mother and father told me before I go to pray for myself but to pray for the others too. They told me to think about the persons that I have in my life and to pray for them. I did pray for them, I even pray for Niall. He hurt me but I still care about him and I will always do. I prayed for my friends and family and other people. I prayed for every single fan of mine and for their family and friends. I hope that I put a little bit of my soul in the universe and I made it better.

You know that time when you wake up in a room and you finally feel like home after a long time of struggling?

That was my feeling when I woke up this morning. I felt that I slept for hours and hours. I woke up and get out of the balcony.

Now I look at the old-new in front of my eyes. I think that if I look in the mirror my eyes shine. I feel like I am shining right now. My dog came in my room an hour ago and right now it is standing next to me. The sun is amazing. The world is beautiful. I look around me and I see children running on the streets, young adults talking on their phones, looking preoccupied, and teenagers going to school, with smiles on their faces. I remember that it was a nightmare to me to go to school, but my life got better. I have learned from home and working on the same time on my dreams.

I think that I never been so happy to look at the outside world. I always thought it consumes me but now I feel it gives me energy and positivity.

I do not have anythingplanned for the rest of the day. I wrote three new songs. Nick told me to callhim when I get back and this is what I am going to do later after my breakfast.I smell my mother pancakes from my room. She always knew how to get me out ofthe bed. I always thanked her for that and for the pancakes that I will eatright now, because I am so hungry that I could eat a wolf.