scream • rants

twenty four

my entire world drops out from underneath me

but i can't cry

i won't let myself cry

i'm alone

i just want you both to stop

please stop

i already know that i am a failure

no need to rub in the fact that i'm dumb

and that my stomach isn't flat

or that i may never be the fastest runner

please, please stop

i can already feel the demons

telling me to jump

and be free

i understand that i am a selfish brat

and i can't wallow in self-pity

people lead much harder lives than i

so i can't feel bad

i can't feel bad for myself

instead let me help you both

you can retire earlier

with one less

burden to take care of.

goodbye.