The Diary of A Mad Black Drunk Man

Chapter 9: Square One

(A guard comes and opens the cell for J.R.)

Guard: You have a visitor asshole....

J.R.: I thought I told you motherfuckers, I didnt want any visitors.

Guard: She demands to see you, So come on and Shut up....

(J.R. walks down the cell block)

(J.R. Sits down and picks up the phone)

J.R: WHERE's my Gotdamn visitor????

(Alexandria appears)

(J.R s eyes get big with tears)

J.R. excited: Momma, Momma its you. I knew you would come back.

Alexandria: Where's your life going baby?

J.R: Momma when did you get back??? I know Lucas told you we're not speaking but....

Alexandria:  Im disappointed in you J.R... You have a son you have a wife. You have responsibilities J.R.

(J.R hangs his head down)

Alexandria: You want to be better than Leeroy. Not worse!!!!. You're gifted you have things that others dream of. Don't let it go to waste J.R.

J.R cries: You left me. This is all your fault. If you woulda woke up that morning I wouldn't be going through this shit.

(J.R punches the glass)

Alexandria: You have to take that up with god J.R. If you end up in here again. I won't be back to visit. I love you take care.

(Alexandria's take care echos)

(Alexandria dissapears)

J.R. Screams: Momma, Momma come back I need to talk to you.

( J.R wakes up in his cell sweating and shaking)

Counselor Michaels: You were in your cell Four months, no drinking, no nothing. When you were released why didn't you quit???

J.R: Because I didn't want to quit Counselor. I wasn't trying to get help. Hell, I wasn't trying to get help now.,The judge gave me an option 10 years in prison or 8 months looking at you everyday. Any asshole would of took the eight months.

Counselor Michaels: So you don't want to be here....?

J.R.: Of course I do Im just comparing then to now. Those 120 days were hell but I still didn't give a damn about the law. Those 120 days in Rikers Island only made me worse. It wouldn't be the last time I saw a jail cell. The dream I had about my mother was so real, she was talking to me from the grave. When I got out I felt I had a point to prove to her, but I failed because instead I should have been proving something to myself...

January 1983

(Tammi, J.R, and J.R. Junior walk around Bensonhurst Park)

(J.R holds J.R Junior)

Tammi: I am sooo glad you're home J.R....We've missed you so much...

J.R. smiles: I've missed you both too.

Tammi: Don't ever leave us like that again please. Those 4 months felt like 4 years.

J.R.: I can't promise you that Tammi!!!!

(Tammi stops)

Tammi: WHAT the hell do you mean you can't promise me that.?

J.R.: Don't cuss infront of the baby....