Secrets

Chapter 8 Star

I didn't know what to do at this point. I didn't know if I should ask Andy what happened back there or should I let it go. I grabbed my head as I kept thinking and thinking. I was still in Ashley's bunk as I had the curtain closed and it was around 10 am on the tour bus.  I wanted to avoid getting out of the bunk today but my body wanted me to get out. I groaned mentally. I opened the curtains that blocked me away from the band. I saw them all sitting on the couch just before the bunks so I was kinda happy. I would be able to get away from the boys and I would be able to sneak out and then back in. I slowly climbed out of bed and I dashed to the bathroom. But I bumped into someone. I was scared to look up. I just froze as I was looking down. 'Please don't be Andy please don't be Andy' I  thought in my head but I slowly looked up. It was Andy.

"Hey Bambi what are you doing?"He asked 

"Nothing just leaving," I said as I turned around but he grabbed my arm and stopped me.

"No please stay I need to talk to you," He said to me. I wanted to yank my arm away but I didn't. Instead, I turned towards him. But he just shook his head 

"Never mind. " He let go of me and I watched him walk away. I sighed and I rubbed the back of my neck before I took undressed and I took a shower. I later got out and I changed back into my clothes before I dried my hair off and went back to the bunk. I sighed as I laid on my belly and I pulled out my phone. I went to Wattpad and I started to read some story's about love. I was hooked on this one story where the girl was about to get hit by a car but her ex who still loved her pushed her out of the way and he got killed. 'I wish that could happen to me. I would push Ashley or Andy  out of the way and die any day' I thought to my self 

Before I knew it, it was already noon.  I sighed as I put my phone down and I looked at the edge of my bed to see CC. He had his head on my bed and he just looked at me. I stared at him before I flicked his head away and he pouted 

"Why you have to be so mean Star" He whined 

"Because you were looking at my boobs, " I said then Andy came by 

"CC move your fat ass so I can go and eat," He said 

"Fuck no. You can kiss my fat ass" CC said. I started laughing then my big brother came along 

"Alright, you two your both pretty no fighting, " Ashley said before he picked me up from my bunk and carried me to the couches. 

"Best big brother ever," I said putting my head on his shoulder

"I'm your only big brother," He said as he kissed my forehead and he set me down on his lap as he sat on the couch. 

"I can't wait to get back home to my dogs," Jake said 

"Why? They fuck you better than a girl?" Ashley asked 

"Fuck you Ashley" Jake said before Jinxx came in 

"Can you guys shut the hell up?" He said 

"Fat chance Jinxx," I said. he just groaned and sat next to me as Andy started to make some food. 

Today we didn't have a venue to do so it was just a lazy day. We were already at the place we needed to be at for tomorrow's show. I sighed as I stayed close to Ashley. I really didn't want to be near Andy today. Not after what happened yesterday. I really didn't know what to do. Should I tell him or should I not.

"I'm gonna go for a walk," I said as I got up and I grabbed my purse before I left the bus.

"Hey Star wait up!" CC said 

"What is it CC?" I asked 

"Mind if I come with you?" He asked. I smiled and nodded 

"Sure let's go" I grabbed his hand and we walked around. We saw a few shops around town but none of them caught my eye. But a flower stands it. I walked up to the lady who was tending to her sunflowers. 

"How much is it for one sunflower?" I asked 

"Oh here it's on the house," She said smiling 

"No here take this" I handed her a 20. 

"No, keep it. You two seem like the happy loving couple" She said. CC went along with it 

"well Thank you miss. Come see us tomorrow at the show." He handed her a VIP pass for the flower and he waved goodbye and we walked off to a part. 

I sat down on the grass under a tree as CC sat next to me

"CC I have a secret to tell but you have to promise to not to tell anyone," I said 

"You have my word Star. What is it?" He asked.

"I um.... have a crush on andy," I said quietly 

"You have a crush on who?" He asked 

"Andy...." I said as I started to do the 'He loves me, He loves me not' trick on my sunflower. 

"Oh, you poor little girl," CC said pulling me close to him for a hug. 

"He loves me, he loves me not,'' I said as I pulled petals. I was now down to two petals. 

"He loves me, he loves me...not," I said as the last petal was he didn't love me. I sighed and I put my head on CC's shoulder and I watched the petals fly away. I then started to hum. (Song above) 

  For the way, you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way, you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing, oh yeah

For the ending of my first begin
(Ooh, yeah yeah, ooh, yeah yeah)
And for the rare and unexpected friend
(Ooh, yeah yeah, ooh, yeah yeah)
For the way, you're something that I'd never choose
But at the same time, something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear, I need you here always

My accidental happily
(Ever after)
The way you smile and how you comfort me
(With your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
(When you were here)
You the best thing I never knew I needed
(That I needed)
So now it's so clear, I need you here always
(Now it's so clear)

Who knew that I could be
(Who knew that I could be)
So unexpectedly
(So unexpectedly)
Undeniably happier
Sitting with you right here, right here next to me
Girl, you're the best

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
(Said I needed)
So when you were here I had no idea
(When you were here)
(Said I had no idea)
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
(That I needed)
So now it's so clear I need you here always
(Now it's so clear)
(So clear, so clear, I need you always)

Now it's so clear, I need you here always 

When I finished humming I saw CC asleep and I sighed. I put the flower down and I put his arm around my shoulder and I took him back to the bus. When we got there I put him on the couch before I went to my bunk and I aid there. Tears threaten my eyes but I shut the curtain and I bit my lip and I let the tears fall but I cant sob.