Secrets

Chapter 12 Star

The guys and I (Andy is not there) were all down stairs sitting in a circle. CC was on the floor next to me to my right while Ashley was to my left. Jinx was next to Ashley, Jake was next to Jinx, and Jake was next to CC. We were all together. The guys looked at me as I was looking at my feet. I didn't know what to do or how to lead these guys. The room was quiet as we all looked at each other. I felt a arm go around my shoulder and I see that Ashley was giving me a side hug. I put my head on his shoulder. I then got up and I grabbed Andy's book. Jinxx had to get it from Andy so we could work on the lyrics. I opened it up and I saw all the songs and notes. 

"So who's gonna go first?" Ashley asked looking at me as I was looking through the book. 

"CC will go first" I said and then we all broke up to go and do our own things.

I was sitting on my phone looking through twitter when I almost dropped my phone. Andy had tweeted that he and Juliet were getting married. I put my phone down and I went upstairs. I shut the door quietly behind me so the guys could work and I went outside for a walk. I was wearing my brothers jacket over my tank top. I sighed as I walked around town. People stopped and looked at me as if I was crazy or something. I sat down at a park bench.

'Why does this happen to me? All I wanted was Andy... But, He's too perfect for me' I thought as I sat there. There was a club just across the street. I shrugged and thought maybe all the pain would go away after a few drinks. I went inside the club and I sat down. I ordered a shot of whiskey and I sipped it.

I became heavily drunk and I didn't want to ever be sober. I wanted to forget everything. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I look and I see a man in his 40's 

"Can you please help me" He asked. He asked as if he was begging. Since I was drunk I said yes and he took me to the back and gave me a costume and a wig. I went into the changing room and I changed into the costume. When I was done I was told to dance on a pole. I giggled and I did just that. I got a few bucks put in my bra and others thrown at me. I kept dancing and having a good time until Ashley came into the club. 

"Star!" He yelled a bit mad but I didn't care. I kept dancing and picking up my money. I later stopped when Ashley came over by me and he talked to me while I counter my money. 1 thousand dollars. 

"What are you thinking being here!" Ashley said sighing 

"I'm here for fun and to get rid of pain" I said 

"We are gonna go home" Ashley said before the owner of the man came to me and he put me up on stage and told me to sing. I smirked at Ashley and I told the band that was there what song to play and they all knew it and I started to sing 'Love Bites'

Don't listen what your girlfriend says
She reads those magazines
That say you failed the test
You don't have what she needs
I slither like a viper
And get you by the neck
I know a thousand ways to help you forget about her

That bitch can eat her heart out!
Love bites, but so do I, so do I.
Love bites, but so do I, so do I.
Love bites!

My lips are pale and vicious.
You're foaming at the mouth.
You've suffered in the darkness.
I'll suck the pain right out.
So come and taste the reason
I'm nothing like the rest.
I kiss you in a way you'll never forget about me.

That chick can eat her heart out!
Love bites, but so do I, so do I.
Love bites, but so do I, so do I, so do I!

It checks you in and kicks you down,
And chews you up and spits you out.
It messes with your sanity by twisting all your thoughts around.
They say it's blind they say it waits but every time it seals your fate.
And now it's got you by the balls it won't let go until you fall.
I was down and out, got up I said "Hey love I've had enough!"
I've felt pleasure without pain.
My soul you'll never tame!

Love bites, but so do I.
Love bites, but so do I, so do I
Love bites, but so do I, so do I, so do I!
Love bites, but so do I, so do I.
Love bites!
Love bites!

After the song the crowd was crazy and I smiled feeling like I belonged here (Also the song above is what she sounds like singing) I smiled as I went down by Ashley who seemed to be surprise. I just smirk. I looked at the time and it was almost 10 pm at night. I got the job at the club and soon Ashley took me home and I got to keep all my money. I put half in a jar for my own house and the other half to charity

I laid down in my bed and I grabbed my dog Killer while Tokyo was laying down by the door way. I smiled as I held killer and I slowly fell asleep with my puppy in my arms.