Daydreamer Meaning (Book 3 in the daydreamer trilogy)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Back to Izzie POV

The four men in my presence are beginning to become high up on my most want to hurt list! All of them stood cowering from my deadly glare, Regan especially. An hour ago I was debating the reasons to trust them, after composing my attack from who I now know as Bret da roule, the brute who flattened me in alley back in new York, and awaiting my brother Drew to join the family gathering I let lose on the boys letting them now exactly what makes me tick, and to never underestimate me, I was so angry I nearly choked Nate to death, if it wasn't for the robust Sonia, his vampire bit of ass I probably would have, and even she soon backed off after the fire I set going at her feet, Vampires fear fire more than anything and that fact had her backing away from my wrath.

And now looking at these four I can't believe they are trying to argue with me, after everything I have said to them , well apart from Regan but I'm sure he has been filled in by Isac while I carried on like a bull in a china shop. My initial mission to find the mysterious guy and get Nekoda in order to find a way to get Mickey's soul back to his body is laughable to them, they say there is no time, they say it's a long shot, that Nekoda may not even be able to help and if he did, it doesn't mean he would! And now as my head reels with everything Regan told me about spell 'NOAH' found in MY book, who said he could read it, I certainty didn't, my distrust of the man aside, I can't even consider the possibility of allowing Mo, my second father, the father of my best friend to go through the torture the searchers can succumb someone too.

I may not show it, because I don't want anyone to worry, but the pain and fear to overcomes me when there power takes me back to where I was those six weeks in the coma is almost unbearable. my daydreamer bloodline dulls it, and once I have control over it I can stop it, but it creeps up wherever and whenever it wants, letting me know my soul is no longer fully mine, 'they' hold a part of me, a part of me they can twist, screw and burn as often as they want. not the mention the dreams, the reliving of floating in nothingness for eternity and the helplessness of not knowing if I am dreaming or if I am actually back there, calling out to Regan who never answers, screaming but not making a sound, it is the most pathetic gut retching fear I have ever felt, and if they expect me to agree to let Mo be open to that and worse they are the crazy ones, he is human, he may not even come back to us, it could swallow him and never bring him back, I am convinced the only reason I am here is because of who I am and my reason for being. What is Mo's reason for being, no one powerful Is on his side, I can't let him do it I won't!

My body aches with the tension running through me, my anger is rattling my bones causing a constant shiver to course all over my body, I'm so furious it hurts, can't they see, why can't they see. Regan is the first to dare to approach me, I know as soon as I see his face that my link was open all the way through my internal rant, I confirm it when I look to my brother and I don't even bother to close it now, they have to see, I'm holding on by a thread, if I'm not strong enough Mo will never be!

"You are strong Izzie, your the strongest hardest most stubborn person I know, what you have been through 'should' have killed you, it 'should' have taken you from this life and into the next it 'should' have taken all of you away to be left with a shell of a woman, but instead you came back fighting, with more power and love than you have ever had, you came back to me baby....and I will do everything and anything to make sure you stay the woman I fell in love with!"

His lips never moved, they couldn't with the tremble of anger, hurt and fear he had running through him, he is determined, I can see it his body, defiance suits him, he wants me so much to agree, and I understand that, if it was anything else other than the searchers I would probably break and allow it, but I can't! how can I allow it knowing what will happen!