Not Alone Buddy [#Wattys2016] [complete]

Chapter 5: i am trying to understand so just let me in

Nisovin PoV
"I hear them too"
He look up and i bring him in for a hug, it awkward hug, I have hug someone in a long time. We stay look this for a while

Rob PoV
I look up after what he said, does he mean the voices in my head, how does he know about them, I've only told Mr White did Mr White tell him, he then move closer and I am afraid of what he will do to me. The he engulf in a hug, I normally get hug by doctors or I hug them but he hugging me weird. the voice in my head are say he just pitying you, I give up when he said I am not worthless you are it made me feel so bad there not even a feeling for it but right I know he means what he saying and he put his feeling on the line for a broken boy like me. He is broken which means so much more, we then move apart and he says
"So when did they start and what do they say"
The voice in my head are saying he doesn't know what we're saying which means he doesn't have voice in his head, I shake my head and then say
"You go first"
He nodded
"You don't trust me yet I get it anyway, they start after I hurt one of my friends after that they start to yell at me and tell me stuff and I do them, they say stuff like your useless, worthless, nothing, fat, stupid and stuff like that your turn"
I smile knowing he telling the truth I feel it he was scared to tell me and sad at the same time, and some of word same as what they would say to me
"I think it start when I start school but most of my memories are gone because something happen to me when I was younger anyway, I remember they start of friendly like they were make believe friends but I couldn't see them, but I remember at one point they start to turn into monster and they would say people lie to me when something they weren't and they would make me think stuff bad stuff, I was alway weird as a kid because I had a lot of siblings and I never really talk to anyone, they said stuff like you said worthless and stuff like that"

Nisovin PoV
He doesn't remember because something happen he really has bad stuff going on, I ask
"Do you remember why you don't remember most thing"
He shakes his hand and say
"No, I remember some stuff just not most but I do remember it was my dad fault and I was yelling at him, I don't even remember why they put me in here or when"
"I know why people knowing you hearing voices and your hype all the time"
He laugh at what I said
"I am worse this is me not being hyper"
I laugh and he laugh to,he smile so big and it show his teeth.

Mr White
I find Jake and Moe and tell him they run with me to the boys room, I open the door expecting one of them to be screaming or died but no they were both smile and laughing. They stop me and frowned and said sorry
"What happened when I want out Nisovin was yelling and Rob was on the floor crying"
"The voices had stop and I heard Rob say make the voices stop, the voices inside my head are killing me and I then said I hear them as well then we hug and talk out the voices and he doesn't remember most of the stuff of his life before he went in here and he said I don't even know why and I say I know why people knowing you hearing voices and your hype all the time and then we laugh and that the short version"
Nisovin was saying this so sadly like they did something wrong
"God, i was worried one of you many die at last you guys are talking more.

Rob PoV
Mr White said
"That was an emotional day, so you guys are going to go back to your rooms and have sleep and will do session again tomorrow"
I wait until everybody leave and I got my dinner, nothing really happened, the voices didn't return that night which was amazing.

Trigger warning- depression

Nisovin PoV
I am took back to my cold dark room where I was left which my thought and the voices, they return laughing at me for helping Rob saying was lied about his family and the laugh was fake, instead of telling my self that Rob didn't lie about anything and that laugh wasn't a pity laugh it come from within. All I did was sit there and let there struggling names take over my body, I then a get the blade and cut into my skin it say never let him in after that a put the blade back and get my book from behind the radiator and put the word under Rob name

Trigger warning over

Nisovin book
Rob
Snitch, useless, non-trust worthy, idiot, thick, never become friends with him, lies to you. The list goes on and on some Nisovin will never say out loud he writes one page of word and other stuff

Nisovin PoV
I finish writing about him and then I write what happen today and how many times I've cut and hide my book, the night drag on.

Unknown PoV
I will never give up them never, they can take them off me, hide them but I'll find them I love the felling of it, they say i am killing myself I say I am finally living, I will never give up, never.

Authors note
Hey guys, comment and vote, don't forget to follow and here the question today who is this unknown PoV guess in the comment below and what do you think happen to Rob to leave most of his memories gone. Please comment I'll make my day no my week, I may even look at your guys books
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This was made Sunday 5 June 2016

From Poblol and goodbye