Not Alone Buddy [#Wattys2016] [complete]

Chapter 11: stress

Rob PoV
Nisovin is crying his eyes out, I then move to hug him but he finches, the scared look in his eyes that make my heart fall and all I want to do is hug him harder. Not even asking for to agree to the hug, I grab him and hug him hard not caring if he doesn't want one because he will get it wether he like it or not. He swill and try to move but I then say.
"Hey, you ok, I am I hurting you
He shake his headand say.
"No just not use to human interaction, I haven't talk or touch someone in a while"
"Ooo ok me to but you look sad"
"I shouldn't be the one sad, your the one who talk to the voices and that chat sounded sad"
"It was nothing" I lied it made me feel worthless but my brain like it and doesn't want to share the voice, there mine, my only best friend Nisovin isn't a best friend he just a person who was assigned to me to talk and be happy.
"Rob I am here for you, I am alway here for you"
The voices start and say no he isn't he wasn't here when you need him and no one is here for you,
"Ok, I'll come if I need you"
He smile, I choose not to smile back in case he can see though it.
"Do you go into the hung out room and watch anima movie"
He smile again, I nod. We walk to the hung out room, it a white small room, only a small number of people can come in here but Nisovin and me are allowed because we're not that mental. There small TVs on a table, there a couch in front of Tv and there a games in a self next to the small TVs. Nisovin sit on the couch and I sit next to him, he put in the movie and plays the movie.

-time skip-

Half way though the movie, Mr white come in and ask to speak to Nisovin, he say I have to go back to my room for now until Nisovin comes back.

Warning trigger- bad language

Nisovin PoV
I am sitting on the wooden chair again and cross my arm trying to act angry at him but mostly I am just sad not angry.
"Nis I am sorry ok don't be mad"
"You called me mess up how can I not be mad about that"
I am not mad just really sad that I thought he care about me.
"Look I've been stress lastly because of my daughter it just slip"
"Just slip does that mean that you actually think I am mess up"
"Your in a mental hospital of course your mess up"
He rose his voices say that and I feel weak, the voices start to he alway thought you were a mess up nothing to him just another paitiont to him. I start to cry but I scream.
"Why did you work to help mental people"
I stand up and he stand up too shouting
"I need money for my fuck up daughter, i don't want to be here"
He storms over to me, so close I can feel has breath on my neck ,I scream
"Well your a fucking idiot then anybody can help the mental"
Before I can get half the word out he slap me across the face, I fall backwards and the left side of my check stings for the hard slap. I start to cry, sobbing, I backup into the corner and hide my head in my hands.

Trigger warning over for bad language
Trigger warning- depression, cutting,

Rob PoV
After Nisvoin went off with Mr White, I was in our room, the voices start to speak saying do want we told you to do get Nisovin blade and cut then you'll get use to the pain. I don't even try to fight want they say. I look everywhere for Nisovin blade then I find a book, I open it to find the forget blade inside, I take the blade and move into the bathroom. I sat down on the floor, I try to cut, it hurt for sure. The voices say people will never be mean to you again if you do this, that made me smile and cut harder, depper. 1,2,3,4,5 and I've lost count just slice everywhere and anywhere, I thought pop into my head it is I release something  I want to die, to go to sleep and never wake up. I then curve the word I want to die. I look at my arms an and hands, cover in blood. The erg to cut more to end my life. I start to clean my cuts and rap bandage round my cut then I went out the bathroom and over to my closet, I put on my big woolly jumper. I clean the blade, walk over to Nisovin bed,put the blade to one side and start to read the book. In the front of the book It had date under though date were a diary recount but instead of a normal one it was about how many times he cut himself, what had he done to get him closer to death and want happen that day. Then at back there were people name and bad stuff writer about them, the last time it was use was the day after our second encounter, I thought it went good but on this book it showed me wrong, it said Rob and lots of rude word but it was cross out  and in big letter there were the word Rob is my friend. I start to sob and cry, I did this to myself to stop pain but it only brought more.

Authors note
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This was made on Wednesday 15 June 2016
From Poblol and goodbye