Lost

Chapter 5

"What the hell do you think your doing!?" She shouts.
I'm guessing she's fuming?

"What are these?" I asked in a calm. tone.

"That is none of your business little girl!" She shouted, holy crap she really is angry.

"Mum can you please just tell me why you have all these NDA's?" I asked, my body begins to shake, she is starting to scare me.

"Just get out of my study now!" she shouted even louder this time.

"You also have one with Christians name on it?" I questioned.
"Did you guys have a relationship, other than a business one?"

"I swear to god you get out of this study now or I'm going to...."

"Just tell me why you have these!" I shout cutting her off mid sentence.

"They are for my Submissives!" She shouts back.
What...the...fuck....?

My mind is reeling, Submissives? Like bondage and all that crap? What!?

"What do you mean Submissives?" I ask her trying to hold back my tears. That was the first question that popped into my head.

"They are like..." I cut her off again.

"I know what they are! But just....what?" Im so confused I don't know what to say to this women.

"Look this is not something I want to talk about with my seventeen year old daughter" she said in a calmer tone.

"Are one of these men, my real dad?" I asked. She told me that when I was little my dad walked out on us so I never really knew him, I don't even remember what he looks like. Maybe this is the reason why I don't know him. Maybe he never even knew about me?

"Yes" she said quietly and looked down at the floor. Oh my god!

"Which one?" I ask and I couldn't hold the tears back anymore. I begin to cry more than I thought I would.
She didn't answer me at first and she wasn't making eye contact with me.
"WHICH ONE!" I scream at her. She finally looks back up and her eyes were filled with some sort of emotion, it was like she was trying to tell me something like she was trying to say 'you already know'.

Then it hit me like a truck!

"It's Christian....isn't it?" I ask in a shallow tone, and slowly she nodded.

I had a massive lump in my throat, I couldn't breath. It felt like I was having a panic attack, but one thing still didn't make sense, I look at the date again on the NDA and it said 1998.

"How old was he when you slept with him?" I ask. Again she was hesitant but before I could ask again....

"He was fifteen" she stated with no trace of remorse.
Oh my god...I was sobbing my heart out. It was like someone punched me in the stomach.

"I think I'm going to be sick" I said putting my hand over my mouth.

"Look in my defence I saved him" she snapped a little. Is she trying to explain herself? To justify it?
How dare she!

"Don't you dare try and make this ok. It's not ok!" I shout at her. Oh my god I have to get out of here. I run out the door and push her out the way. I run down the stairs and when I was about to open the door I feel her hands grab my shirt and before I know it she has me pinned to the wall.
"Get off me!" I shout at her and I try to get her hands off my shirt.

"You better not say anything you little maggot!" She spits at me.

"Does he know?" I asked in a shallow tone.

"No! And it will stay that way. You are my daughter not his!" she shouted.
Theres a small pause between us and I know after I say these words I can't take them back.

"Not anymore" I said and finally I got her off me.
I pushed her back and ran out the door.
I quickly got on my motorcycle and drove to Belles.

*Arrives at Belles*

I get off my bike and run to her door, I don't even knock, I just run in. They're all sitting in the living room and when they see I'm a mess Ethan doesn't hesitate to give me a hug.

"What happened?" Belle asks, shes the next one to give me a hug. I explain everything to them. From the shouting about the NDA's to finding out Christian Grey is my biological father.
God what the hell just happened?
"You can stay here tonight and we will sort it out tomorrow" Belle suggested and I nod at her. I couldn't find my words.
The boys offer to go and get a few of my things from my house. They're such a big help.
Ethan gives me one last hug before they leave.

"Don't worry everythings going to be fine" he whispers in my ear which sends shivers done my spine. Then they head out the door.
I look at the time and it's just coming up for eight.

"Hun I'm just going to go to bed" I turn and say to Belle.

"Sure just sleep in my bed tonight and I will set up the spare room for you for tomorrow" she said giving me a hug.

"Thank you" I said and walk upstairs.
I lay on the bed for a good half an hour just crying, what a day!

I finally drift off to a heavy but troubled sleep.